Everything happens for a reason

Chapter 2

I don't think anyone has gotten the chance to completely get to know the real you and maybe I haven't exactly known you completely but what I have gotten to know is truly amazing. You're so sweet and funny, fun to be with, annoying in a good way. Your smile can make anyone else happy. Your inner child has never left you. On april 4th we went to see Mr. Peabody and Sherman. We were five friends and the rest of the audience and were the only ones laughing during the movie other than two little kids behind us. Its amazing how much fun being around you is. After the movie I waited until everyone left and I stayed alone with you. I took the chance and kissed you. Even if it wasn't very long it was good to kiss out of the school property plus it was something I planned at the moment not before.

Like always a few days later we had phone sex. Apparently we can't be that long without it. Especially with her amazing moans. I think that day was the first time she said my name while moaning and trust me i got some big butterflies in my tummy but i ignored them completely.

Whenever I want to kiss her I can't actually let her know before hand because it doesn't work out. If we want to kiss only one of us can know and on april 30 neither of us knew.

We were at the day care. Waiting for the bus and I decided to start staring at her lips. She blushed. Who wouldn't? I kept staring and having a laugh enjoying that moment with her but then the desires came. Oh my god i wanted to kiss her so badly. It took some convincing but finally she accepted the idea of kissing in the middle school bathroom and we did.

The most frustrating thing about her is that she always wants to triple check that no one is there and she makes me wait so long for her lips. Ugh!

May 1st. Today was the student's day. During the day I hadn't talked to her about kissing or anything. And not even the day before. We had fun that day. She went to the school pool and i hung out with my friend Nicole. At 2:15 since we had to leave early that day we got on the bus. Not many people were there. Soon the bus was almost empty just me and her and my little sister.

I decided to take a risk. She moved to the seat in front of the one we were sitting on and i kneeled on the floor and started kissing her. As soon as the driver left the bus I couldn't stop but this time it was different. I was in control and instead of using that control in a naughty and more passionate way I used it in a cute way. I kissed her nose, rubbed my nose against hers and finally after trying for months to give her a small peck on the lips I finally did. After that kiss everything changed.

We started talking more as if we were a couple and it came to the point in which i asked her to be my girlfriend and take the risk and she told me she would think about it. Instead of pressuring her all the time I tried giving her the space she needed some times i couldn't do it but in my heart i knew she hadn't given me an answer because it was going to be a no. Maybe she likes someone else, maybe she decided her curiosity is over, maybe i fucked up so badly she doesn't even care about kissing me anymore or maybe she got a boyfriend.

Our last kiss was on May 9. As always it wasn't planned but it didn't last long because the librarian appeared and after our friend woke up from her nap. They went to the bathroom and kissed. They both said they didn't like it but after that everything changed completely.

I can't hope on something that will never happen. I can't think you will ever look at me the same. But I love you. I love you and I can't help how I feel. I wish you would have given me the chance but then again no one ever does. I can't believe I thought it would be different this time. You were my first friend with benefits. My first almost girlfriend that wasn't a long distance relationship or messed up. My second love. My princess. My everything. Not everyone finds love and maybe I'm one of those people but then again I did find you I just fucked it up.

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