Twins Of A Heart (in the middle of editing)

A life time

Chapter twenty-eight

“Damon, can’t you stay a while longer? I’m going to miss you and Leah.” I dreaded that Leah was going with but it had been her own wish. I couldn’t say no. Today was the day Damon got back to his territory along with Leah, I had to stay and take care of Hunter’s pack now that we’re mated. The current Alpha, Hunter’s father had already retired and gave the position to Hunter. We have big shoes to fill. “No, I have my own pack to lead Nora.” He rubbed the back of his neck, his eyes darting to Leah once a while. I knew him solid on leaving was Leah, this pack...had too much memories of Zeke. 

“Please visit us sometime soon.” Hunter said as they did that manly handshake men like to do. I walked towards Leah, her look so forlorn and lost. As if she lost her motivation in life, I would be like her too if Hunter died. What purpose do I serve if my mate was gone? “Pumpkin?” I tried to get her attention, she seems so distracted and unfocused now…not in a good way. “Pumpkin, look at me.” I gripped her shoulders, the hollowness in her eyes made me shudder. “Please look at me.” Her eyes held recognition. “Nora?” 

“Are you going to be okay?” I asked her, the words came out like a choke. It was hard to suppress this sadness I feel from and for her. I missed the little sister I got used to, the one who would jump and shout in random situations…the sister that had sugar addiction and the one that would cry without her ice cream. She wouldn’t be the same again and I knew it. 

Maybe someday she would return but time seems so golden. I don’t know how long it would take or who would bring her back and that fact alone scares me. What if she can’t be brought back? What if I would lose my sister to a dead man? What if I was the one who would give up hope on her first? The ‘what if’s would permanently be branded in our lives.

“I-I’m fine.” She resembles a zombie with her eye bags and hollow cheeks, no longer would she glows. I hugged the life out of her, “This isn’t how it should be…” I sobbed, I hate to spoil the parting scene with my crying but she means too much to me. “I met him while I was unconscious…he wanted to tell you how much he loved you. He didn’t regret his actions…he wanted you to be happy. He wanted us to be happy.” I shook her softly, like that petty motion could get it into her head. 

“I’M NOT HAPPY! HE WAS SELFISH TO THINK LIKE THAT!!” Leah cracked, her real emotions kept bottled in finally broke. “I WANT A FAMILY…with him. Nora, you know how much I envy those people all this time. I see parents walking down the street hand in hand with their children, laughing their hearts out. WHY CAN’T I HAVE THAT! WHY?! 

Tell me Nora, why! What makes me so different? You got your happy ending now I want mine! I CAN BE SELFISH TOO. TELL ME WHY! You want me to be happy? Bring him back…” Leah dropped to her knees; her arms had been flinging at me. I had to grab her wrists to stop her from hitting me. Tears ran down her face.

“I-I-I can’t pumpkin. He’s gone, you have to understand that…if you love him then respect his choices knowing that he really did love you.” I dropped to my knees beside her. 

“I’m t-taking sometime a-away.” Leah sobbed. “I can’t handle this here.”

“I get it.” Taking her hands in mine, I now know how serious this is for her and no one can tell her that they understand how she feels. It would be a lie otherwise.

“Come on.” I got her up on her feet, “Go.” Ushering her towards Damon seems so difficult. All our lives we had never been apart, now its such an awkward and uncomfortable thing to do. Why can’t we stay together? Deep down I know the answer to that question. We grew up into these mature ladies. We grown out of our comfort zone and adventured into the real world where it’s not just the two of us anymore. We can’t afford to be selfish and needy. I have a pack now, as their Alpha Female I held immense responsibilities. Leah had to get over her mate’s death and move on.