on distance and needs

06

14th september, 2017

1:04 am

it had been a long and tiring day for mara but she was still full of excitement. you see, she was waiting for a text from scepticalabir. she did not know why she was so full of hope that he would text her first — for fuck's sake, she didn't even know the guy or where he lived and what he did.

her phone beeped and her hand dashed for it.

scepticalabir: what's the best thing you've gained from psychosis?

psychxticmara: i think the best thing that i've gained from it would be insight into the workings of the human mind and how it can go haywire.

scepticalabir: i like to think of it more like experimental neurochemistry.

psychxticmara: that's cool

we'll pause here for a moment because there are some important facts about nineteen year old mara lakhani's interest in boys which are as follows:

1. she liked thin-bodied boys with glasses
2. she really liked boys who were 'sciencey' (for lack of a better and cool term for this) and could maintain a conversation with her
3. she never really have had a crush on anyone. yes, anyone.

okay, so now we are all clear and we will continue with the story.

1:07 am

scepticalabir: so, what sort of music do you like?

psychxticmara: well, my music domain stretches from western classical to alternative rock.

scepticalabir: fair enough. i like post malone the most. have you heard his song, 'white iverson'?

psychxticmara: nope, sadly

scepticalabir: post malone's my idol, to be honest. i want to lose some weight, be lanky and have gold teeth like him. lol

psychxticmara: i am not so sure about gold teeth, though...and i think they must be expensive af.

scepticalabir: i haven't got many looks to fall back on haha

psychxticmara: that mustn't be true and it's not like i am some sort of supermodel.

scepticalabir: i don't care about looks.

psychxticmara: neither do i. never did.

scepticalabir: could i see that gorgeous face of yours as a friend? x

her fingers froze over her phone's screen. in the semi-darkness of her bedroom, the light from her phone partially illuminated the expression of surprise on her face. she came back to her senses within a second, though.

psychxticmara: nah, i don't do selfies. sorry. also, my face isn't gorgeous.

(did he really think that she was going to send her picture to a random stranger on the internet?! she had encountered creepy weirdos before, but this guy...this guy seemed so gentle about the whole photo thing and she really hadn't talked to anyone online who was this...this kind about it.)

1:19 am

scepticalabir: you don't know that. every face is beautiful. it wouldn't change a damn thing to me. could you at least describe what you look like? if that's not too much to ask.

psychxticmara: okay, cool.