Our Secret and His Secret

Chapter 4

Somehow my mind kept wondering off and thinking of Jack. I don't know what it is about him but it's where my train of thoughts seem to be leading me.

It’s like he has left this impact on me and I don't know what to do about it. One thing is for sure I don't want to start liking him.

Liking him! Whoa hold up there that's a ridiculous idea! I have Joe right...

I mean Joe is really, really good looking Sarah, Kelly and Kimberly are all killing to be in my place right now and I bet a million other girls are. I'm lucky that he even looks at me so why am I thinking about Jack?

"Don't frown it will spoil your pretty face." The voice that I've only heard a few times but know so well tells tenderly to me like he actually cared.

"I was just thinking."

"About?"

"Stuff."

"Me!?" He asked hopefully but being the big head he is seriously as well.

"No Joe, not everything revolves around you."

"You're right. You were thinking way too hard to be thinking about me."

"Yeah you're way too easy on the mind." I say teasing him. "And on the eye." I want to add but know that would only contribute to him thinking he was god.

He doesn't say anything. His pale pink lips curl up into a smile and his dark eyes shine, meeting the gaze of mine.

He's making my whole body weak with his stare. How could I possibly be thinking of another guy?

"What are you doing here Joe?" I ask still staring into his eyes, realising that he's not normally in my business class.

"I told you my whole time table changed." Not looking away from me. "Looks like you're stuck with me. Anyone sat here?"

"Y-yes." I was finding this all too intense to speak properly. I took a huge gulp and prayed to god he didn't realise he made me stutter. It was embarrassing.

"Looks like they are going to have to find somewhere else to sit."

"Right class." A loud voice boomed making me tear my eyes away from Joe, my cheeks slowly turning red. "We will start with quick fire questions."

I couldn't bring myself to look in Joe's direction again. I was too scared we'd stare into each other’s eyes again. Joe's eyes were just something I couldn't resist.

I'm so glad we didn't have to sit and listen to our tutor speak much, as that was when I found my eyes moving into Joe's direction. It was too hard not to look at him. I found him so attractive. I wanted to watch him and not take me eyes off him. I wanted him to notice me. I wanted to see his dark eyes shine. I wanted to study his face and remember every perfect inch of it.

On the other hand I didn't want him to think I was a weirdo.

Or give him the advantage of him catching me looking at him.

The rest of the class was spent working or talking with in our class group of friends. I tried not to talk or look in Joe's direction and he seemed busy making new friends in the class.

 There were a couple of times where we would catch each other’s eyes. He would just give me a small smile and go back to doing what he was doing.

"I want you to look for two start-up companies that you are going to be following for this topic. So make sure you like them. You may go."

I was glad for the lesson to be over. I wouldn't have to resist myself from staring at Joe because I knew he wouldn't be around. I could relax.

I noticed he wasn't in such a rush to dash out the class room this time. Maybe he didn't have one of his followers to meet.