Plot Twist

Chapter 6: Let Go?

He was what I wanted.

I'm not sure if he wants me the way I want him.

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I was about to get out of his car when he opened my door.

"I'll see you tomorrow." He smiled.

I stood against his car, he was so close.

I saw my mom and Justin in the window.

He had his hands on my waist.

"Ryder I should go in there..." I sighed.

As I said that he moved his hands to my face. Then he kissed me.

I wrapped my arms around his neck and he moved his hands again down to my waist pulling me closer.

I didn't want this to end but if course it had to.

He slowly pulled his face away and put his forehead on mine.

"Thank you for being with me." He kissed my nose.

"Well you needed me." I smirked.

"I always need you." He pushed my body firmly against him, letting me feel his bulge growing.

"Mmm Daddy..." I moaned into his ear.

He kissed me hard.

"Stop teasing me." He growled in my neck.

"I have to go." I laughed trying to walk away from him.

"Babygirl?" He grabbed my hand.

"Yes Ryder?" I smiled at him.

"I'm sorry." He looked me in the eyes.

"For what?" I gave him a confused look.

"For everything." He sighed and started to  get back in his car.

For everything? What is he talking about?

"Ryder!" I ran up to him. Grabbing his face I smashed my lips against his. He held me so close, not in a lust say like a few minutes ago.

This time was different. We've been having those a lot.

He pulled away and I brought him closer, closing the gap he made between our lips.

After we lost our breathe we slowly let our lips part.

"What was that for?" He sighed, eyes still closed.

I left a small kiss on his lips and said, "everything."

He was taken back because when I reopened my eyes he had panic in his eyes.

"Ryder... I know this is different. All of last night and today was different. But it's a good different. Fuck the damn agreement! I don't want that anymore. I want feelings. I want questions. I want you." A tear slide down my cheek.

"I can't. I'm sorry." He let me go.

Once his car was almost faded down the street I broke down.

I couldn't not cry. He let me go.

He said "no" to change.

I can't believe I thought he would love me.

I felt my mothers arms wrap around me.

"I love you, you asshole." I cried. 

I said it. I love him.

My mom helped me up and walked me into the house.

"Sweetie," she sighed.

"I'm fine. I'm going to take a shower." I ran upstairs.

As I sat in the tub I cried as the water fell upon me.

I was with him for 3 days. (My birthday which was Wednesday and Thursday and Friday) we didn't go to school and he wanted to see me tomorrow for a dinner date thing but I don't think that'll happen now.

I ruined it. All of it.

I love him.

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Ryder:

"I'll be there at 5:30. be ready."              11:25am

I guess we're still going...

Me:
"Okay..."                                                       11:25am

Ryder:
"Okay."                                                         11:26am