Plot Twist

Chapter 7: He knew

You'll know because when you have to leave you want to make sure they get home safely. You'll look at her and wonder wth is going on and you'll brush the thought of her off. But then she'll keep trying. And when she tells you personal things you'll end up wanting to know everything about her. You'll start to fall for the little cute things she's texts you. You'll start overthinking about her. And finally once you go on a date or two you'll asks her to be yours. You'll want her. All of her. Her mind. Her soul. Her laugh implanted into your mind... you'll want her smile to always be on her face no matter what. You'll know when you truly found her.

But you can't just wait around for the one to come around. You need to live your life. Figure yourself out as much as you can and one day god will lead you to the person you need.

God has a plan for all of us. He's not letting this heart break go he's just warning us they aren't the people we should be with. And soon enough you'll be happy when he shows you the way to the person who makes you the happiest you've been in the longest time.

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I couldn't be the one for her. As I drove away I saw her crying. I hurt her. I left. It was the best thing to do. She was making me fall in love with her. I knew I had to leave. We had a great time while it lasted. I texted her...

Me:
"I'll be there at 5:30. be ready."              11:25am

Babygirl:
"Okay..."                                                       11:25am

Me:
"Okay."                                                         11:26am

Maybe one last time.

I hurt her but I want her.

She probably hates me but I'm falling in love with her.

•••5:30pm•••

I saw Jaci pacing outside her front door as I pulled into her driveway.

She walked up the my car and I just took note of all of her. This is the last time. The last time I'll be able to see her again.

"Hi" she whispered while sitting in my passenger seat.

"Hi" I looked her in the eyes.

"So..." she looked down sighing.

I hurt her.

"We should talk." I sigh pulling away from her house.

"Where are we going?" She ignored me.

"Somewhere we can talk privately."

The drive was quiet, there was a light sound of the music playing on the radio and I could she her looking at me from the corner of my eye. 

We got out at a vacant park. We're we first made our agreement.

"You hurt me." She whispered.

"I know." I sighed. "I didn't want to hurt you ever but this what we're doing has to end."

"Why" she kept her eyes on her feet.

"I'm no good for you. I can't love you the way you need."

"Then why bring me here? Why come get me? This is dumb you're just hurting me more..." she cried softly. "I love you. I fucking love you okay? I want you to be mine and I want to be yours. Why can't we be together?"

"I...I wanted to end it where we started it all... I can't love you the way you need me too I've said that millions of times. I can't." I felt tears of my own slide down my cheeks.

"I love you." She repeats

"I'm sorry."

"Kiss me. Hold me and tell me you love me." She cried harder then I've ever seen her.

"Jaci..."

"NO I'm your babygirl." She yelled.

"This was never supposed to happen." I sighed. "Im an asshole who doesn't deserve you." She was pushing my chest and kept crying. This sight killed me but I can't cave in and kiss her.

"I'm leaving."

"What does that mean?" She cried.

"I am being deployed tomorrow."

She looked up at me and said nothing. All the words were gone.

"I'm not coming back." I kissed her forehead and turned around. I can't look at her.

"You knew this whole time didn't you? These past few months you've known you were going to leave... that's why?" She cried grabbing my arm turning me to face her.

"Yes."

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March 14th, 2029
Ryder Russett was killed in action.