Separate roads

Chapter 5

(Present 6:30...Jakes pov)

Dan had dropped everyone off. We stopped by my house so I could grab some close, I already had the necessary toiletries at the pack house.

As I walked out the front door I saw dan leaning on his truck which wasn't odd in itself but what was was he had a rather smug face on, it was soft but very happy like he knew something.

I watched him our eyes connected the entire time I walk until I stopped in front of him, he looked at me in a way I have never been looked at nor expected to be looked at by my alfa. "Uh ...c...can you uh"I pointed to the door he was leaning on.

"Oh yea ..sorry," he said and jerked himself out of the way and quickly walked to his door and hopped in.

I got in the car and we start driving. It was silent, we both tried to start a conversation but it just didn't work. I looked out the window watching the scenery watching the deer run in the fields that passed, looking at the green brush sway as we drove by.

We pulled up to the house and I quickly hopped out and ran inside to be greeted by Dan's mom Frankie or as we call her Fran or Mrs. Stein.

"Hello, Fran"

"Hello, Jake come in make yourself at home."

I hugged her kindly and then walked in and upstairs to Dan's room, I put my bag down and lay down on the couch waiting for dan.

Dans pov) kinda sad "ish!! sorry if this next part is clumped

I just sat in the car I couldn't let Jake or anyone see me cry.

"I swear he's making me insane I hate myself!!

I cant love him its wrong, one he's a guy and GOD!! what am I saying there are a million reasons to hate this, ...but there also million to love it... WHATS WRONG WITH ME!!"

I feel the tears falling down my face as I dig my nails into my arms. I bang my head on the steering wheel, all I want is a little pain to distract me from the pain on the inside.

I'm balling and I know when I walk in that house he will see me and I hate that.

I compose myself and open the door, But I cant, I cant handle it. Feeling like this for another 5 days NO!! I need to no I need to no is he, my mate.

I simply slid off my seat and curl up on the ground shaking. "why does it hurt so much why. "DAN!!"

My sobs are interrupted by a scared Jake running to my side which only makes me cry more. "G...GO..AWAY!!go away go away!!" I move away from him "whats wrong Dan!! are you hurt please tell me!"

"GO AWAY PLEASE!!.. IT HURTS!!! just GO AWAY!!" I yell and push him away.  "NO!! you need to tell me whats wrong..that's why I'm here Dan I'm your delta." I feel him grab my shirt and pull me closer to him. "please Dan, you can tell me anything"I calm down at his touch but I still feel like I'm going to explode, but I have to tell him something.

 "i...i...i don't know Jake you will hate me I hate me!" I bury my head in his chest probably soaking his shirt, "id never EVER hate you Dan were family and I love you, man." I feel like I'm gonna puke I know what he meant but, he can't just say that. 

"No, you don't" I whisper in his shirt, "what?" he asks petting my hair "NO YOU DONT!! YOU DONT NOT LIKE I LOVE YOU!!  IT HURTS JAKE ITS HURTS SO BAD!! you don't know jake!!"i push myself out of his arms and run, I don't know which direction I just let my feet carry me far away from him

YERP ITS SHORT I SPLIT IT UP EMOTIONALLLLLL cliffhanger hahahahahahaha im way to evil