Paralysed [j.j.k] c O m P l E t E

Chapter 2

Y/N POV-

Ah what a glorious day.

It was raining once again.
The sudden gust of violent wind brought warmth to my heart.

I'm caged in, but I can still think,feel...

I hate it, what is the point?

Just die already...

But the truth is, I'm scared.
Every single day I repeat myself over and over again but for some reason I won't allow myself to do it.

I still have hope.

I still have hope that one day everything will be back to normal, I'm sure.

I'm sure that that one day Mother will come back, sure that I will be able to move again.

And I strongly hope that you will forget me.

As I'm thinking these things I hear sounds of footsteps coming towards me.

You approach me with your signature bunny smile.

It warms my heart.

I can't show it but you're my motivation, not forgetting the rain of course.

I study your features quietly, not that I can make a sound anyway.

You kneel in front of me, your head dropping low with a shy smile. Your cheeks are a tint of pink which makes me smile internally.

Oh how I wish I can smile, gosh darn it!

Behind you hides a bouquet of flowers with a little note attached to them.

You're terrible at hiding things, if I could, I would laugh so hard at your cute figure.

I'm goofy, or at least I was.
Your hand trembles whilst bringing the flowers away from hiding, into my view.
You do this every day.

I want to thank you.

THANK YOU!

At least I can shout in my head.

"I-I really... r-really love you Y/n"
Your stuttering form is the absolute best.

I would hug you so tight that your insides would shift, like I used to do when we were little.

I eye the flowers nervously, I want to.

I really want to accept you, but I cannot love you the way you love me.

I would be a disgrace to you.

I don't want you to suffer, as you have suffered enough.

Last week, your grandmother passed, your parents were assassinated by my dad 5 years ago and you still haven't healed.

I see your eye bags, perfectly visible, your face pale and dead.
And yet you still manage to pull it off, always looking like a whole meal.

I snort in my mind. I am a weird one.

I don't understand how you feel the way you do about me when own father literally killed your parent in front of both me and you.

You managed to hate me for so long, but then all your hatred flew out the window.

Instead I became a shoulder to cry on.

Can you not see all the pain I'm causing you.

I am slowly and painfully destroying you, and you simply let me.

When I became paralyzed you nearly had a heart attack.

You bafoon, you were meant to leap with joy, not cry in misery.

You silly little coconut.

What will you do when I leave you huh?

"p-please don't think that way,"

I look at him confused.

"I know what you're thinking, don't you dare think that way!"

Seeing you break down into tears and painful shouts.

Oooooohhhhh the paaaiiiin!

I struggle to move my mouth, anything, but of course it didn't work.

I want to be with you, to console you. But I know I won't last long.
Even the nurses are saying I'm over due for my death.

How funny is that?

"y/n, please.. I beg you-if you leave, I'll leave with you"

Shit.

I can't control what's happening to my body, eventually I will die.

Can't do shit about.

Felicity entered the room to feed me through the the feeding tube.

How gross, I wish I could munch on a burger right now.
Jung kook had to leave, but not before reminding me.

"please, don't be the last to hurt me" he shivered, whispering underneath his breath, before disappearing through the door.