Dolan Twins Little Sister

Chapter 9 (Depression)

During the movie that Jess and the twins were watching Jessica felt so alone even though her brothers were right there beside her and she told them that she needed to go to the bathroom so she got up and almost fell because she is weak so Ethan picked her up and carried her and she told Ethan that she needed to talk to him and the look on his face was pure fear because he has no idea what she is going to say.

*Conversation between E-Ethan and J-Jessica*

J- "Ethan can I talk to you for a minute alone please."

E- "Sure what's up?"

J- "Actually you know what never mind."

E- "Jess tell me what's wrong."

J- "I feel depressed ok."

E- "Depressed about what?"

J- "Everything Ethan you and Grayson, Cam, Mom and Dad and my life it feels like I just want to give up E and I know you and Grayson don't want to lose me and it feels like I'm a mistake to this family and it's name and I am truly sorry E if you don't want to talk to me again I completely understand." 

E- "Hey Jess it's ok to feel depressed ok and I will keep talking to you because you are my younger sister who needs us the most and just know that we all love you Jessie."

J- "E it's hard for me to be really happy when all I want to do is cry and shut y'all out of my life."

E- "It might be hard but as long as Gray, Cam and I are here you have someone to talk to."

J- "Thanks E."

*Jess hugs Ethan*

E- "No problem little sister lets get back to Grayson ok."

J- "Ok."

*End of conversation*

Jessica's(P.O.V)

After that little conversation with E I still feel alone on the inside and he only thing I can do is put a fake smile on my face. I heard the doorbell ring so I went downstairs and looked through the window and saw Jake and Logan so I opened up the door and yelled for the twins to come down, "ETHAN,GRAYSON YOU HAVE SOMEONE HERE FOR YOU!" as soon as I said that they both came running down the stairs and falling on top of each other Jake,Logan and I couldn't help but laugh. I told the guys why don't you go have fun with Logan and Jake while they are here because they have to go back to LA in five days and they asked me if I was ok with that I said, "Sure you need some guy time anyway you been stuck taking care of your now cancer free sister for the past three weeks." Have fun guys and if you could please bring me back a pineapple pizza if y'all go out to get pizza. 

Logan's(P.O.V)

I can't believe Jessica would call us and ask us to come to New Jersey to take her brothers out because she thinks they need guy time and I agree with that being stuck with a family member with a cancer ill'd sister for three weeks. So when we got to the door we rung the doorbell and we saw a young girl who I assume was Jessica but she had no hair because of chemotherapy and  she told us that, "I will yell for them." My god when she yelled it was so fucking loud then Jake and I saw the twins coming downstairs running and they fell and tripped until they landed on each other Jake, Jessica and I were trying so hard not to laugh at them for being clumsy. After they came down we asked them if they wanted to go get food or something to catch up because knowing they would need some guy time without their sister and then they asked her if she wanted to come but she said, "No guys you go have fun and if y'all have pizza or whatever please bring me back a pineapple pizza now guys go have fun without me ok you deserve it before you back on tour." I could tell there was something off about Jessica and knowing the twins I will text her to see what is wrong because she is not very happy from what I see. I keep thinking that I should tell the twins or just keep it from them but they are my very good friends.

Jake's(P.O.V)

I saw Logan looking at Jessica like he was worried about what she is going to do and honestly I feel bad for her because she is like a little sister that I never had. We all got into the car Logan was driving and the twins were listening to music and I asked Logan what was going on and all he said, "Jessica is not ok dude she looked like she wanted to die." I *Whispered* What are you serious Logan I think we should tell Ethan and Grayson and he just told me lets not tell them until we know for sure that it is the right thing first and just wait and see if Jessica comes up and talks to us or them about what is going on. I told him ok dude knowing that the twins would like to know first anyway.

After the lunch the guys went back home and played video games and to their surprise Jessica came downstairs and grabbed her journal to write what she has been feeling the last couple of months and without her acknowledgement that Logan was behind her reading what she is writing and to his surprise he never knew how bad she was hurting on the inside. So after Jessica was done writing in her journal she went back upstairs and laid down on her bed listening to music and she heard a knock at her door and told them to come in and to her surprise it was Logan and she asked, "What's up Logan why are you here?" he told her that he was coming to see if everything was ok with her because she seemed off but Jessica told Logan that she was fine. After Logan left her room she broke down and cried silently and fell a sleep.