Dolan Twins Little Sister

Chapter 8 (The Notebook)

Grayson's(P.O.V)

I told Ethan what Jessica had told me and I felt bad for betraying her but E needed to know because he loves her too and when I told him his facial expression turned into sadness because he doesn't really want to see his little sister hurt like this and to be honest I don't want to see her like this either when I told him about the notebook he said, "Lets read it to see what else is going on in that little mind of hers."

*The Depression Note Book*

Page 1:  

" December/16th/ 2006, "

 I am six years old and because of my brothers having their YouTube channel and Vine accounts I love them and I will support them forever because they are my best friends and the only friends I have because everyone at my school asked are you the Dolan's little sister or are you the Ethan and Grayson's little sister and most times I want to say no but I have to own up and say that they are my brothers and I am proud to say that they are my brothers and I am not ashamed of them but after saying they are my brother I get the ever loving heck beating out of me because so many people at my school hate me because they all hate my brothers and I don't care if they hate me or my brothers I know I love my brothers and I know that they love me. To be honest I feel like all of the hate has been getting to me and for god who know's why  their fans and everyone hates me but I know why it is because they rather have them film with Cameron and not me because I am ugly, fat or a slut to them and I often don't tell my brothers why I was upset or why I was crying sometimes I often put on a fake smile when they would often come into my room everyday.

-Jessica Dolan

G- "Dude I can't believe she has been getting hate from six years old."

E- "I know bro I hate that she had to go through it I want to help her through it now."

G- "After this we got to let her know that we love her bro because seeing her hurt it hurt me dude."

E- "I know dude lets keep reading and see what happens next."

Page 2:

"January/21/2012,"

It has been six years since everything but the bullying has gotten a lot worse at school and my brothers are doing online school while I am stuck in public school getting beaten mentally, Physically and emotionally and I have been having a hard time telling my family that I am being bullied and all I have to do is say I am fine and go to my room and lay down on my bed but there have been so broken from being at school I go to my bathroom and cut my wrist and sometimes I often think about how I want to die because no one actually takes the time to ask how I feel or what is wrong and if my brothers ask I lie to them and say that I am fine and most often then not I think Ethan is catching on to how I am feeling and I sometimes want to take a knife and slit my throat or hang myself knowing that I would be more at peace with myself knowing that I was dead but doing that I would be hurting the family I love and breaking their hearts and I am not going to do that to them because it would make them hate me forever and I don't want more of that from them when I get more hate from school and online and I surely don't want it coming from my family. After dad died I have not been the same and I have not been eating when I am suppose to eat because I am usually no hungry or I am too upset to eat and my family will bug me with questions why aren't you eating  aren't you hungry and I can't stand the questions or anything from my family but I do love them and that will never change my perspective on them ever no matter on how much hate I get from everyone.

- Jessica Dolan

Page 3:

"December/12/2017,"

I am now 16 years old and my friend Zoe and I have very good times together until I moved to California with my brothers not even a month while I was there I wasn't eating I wasn't really willing to go out with my brothers friends roommates who were just trying to help me cheer up after my brothers left me. The night we arrived to California I was a sleep until I woke up not knowing where I was and I asked them and they both told me that I was staying with their friends Kian and Jc and their roommates and I went out side and yelled at Grayson because him and E were leaving for tour that night and E then came out and asked what was wrong and I snapped in his face and ran upstairs first where I hid in the laundry room then I went out on to the roof and trying to jump until Jc came over a talked to me and I hugged and cried into Grayson's chest and then later that night we went to drop the twins off at the airport where I broke down crying and that Jc had to carry me bridal style to the car and put me in the seat when we arrived back at the house I went out back a lied down in the grass and then all I knew is that Kian and Jc were lying down beside me but what I did was I got up and walked inside and left them outside and then a month rolled by and I was not eating I was weighing only 75 pounds and Jc had just come back from filming season three of Tagged and he saw how bad off I was and he took me to the hospital where I soon fell into a coma and woke up knowing that my brothers had came back from tour to see me because Jc had called Ethan and told him that I was in a coma and then on top of all that the doctor told Ethan, Grayson and I that I was going to have to go through chemotherapy because I had ovarian cancer and I lied down and slept because I didn't want my brothers to know how much pain I am in because of that news and we are now back in New Jersey I just have been feeling alone since all of that happened and I have been holding in all of my emotions and it feels like I am about to break and start cutting again.

-Jessica Dolan 

*Conversation between E-Ethan and G-Grayson*

E- "Wow bro I never knew she felt like that."

G- "I know and I want her to get better and hopefully trust us and open to us about everything."

E- "Yeah dude I think we should go check on her." 

G- "Yeah and maybe we can see if she wants to go on the international leg of the 4OU tour." 

E- "Yeah because if she doesn't know that she isn't really up to it but she will have Cameron and Kian and Jc there with her if she needs someone to talk to." 

G- "Yeah that is true and then we can always talk to her when we are not on stage to see how she is doing."

E- "Well dude lets go take her some dinner."

G- "Yeah dude she must be starving."

*Ethan Knocks on Jessica's door*

J- "Come in."

G- "Hey Jess we brought you some pineapple pizza."

J- "Thanks guys do you want to stay and watch Netflix with me it's ok if you don't want to."

E- "That sounds like fun Jess."