Lost Love // G.B.

• f i v e •

     i was lying in my bed, as i watched the grey clouds cover the blue sky. i've been lying there for about two hours. it had also been about 5 hours since me and my family were at lunch. i couldn't get my mind off of that boy, gilbert. i had run into him, and we discussed our pasts. and for some reason, it gave me a terribly sad feeling. it added on to the anxiety that kept building up day by day.

     i was so nervous for school, meeting new people, and what they'll think of me. and i really want to know what gilbert thinks of me. he seemed to really open up after we talked, but maybe he was just trying to be nice?

     as i lay there, tears streamed down the sides of my eyes. i already miss him. i missed that feeling of talking and associating with other people. i've been and i have been feeling, just... lonely.

     my thoughts are soon interrupted by somebody knocking on the front door downstairs. i jumped up and hurriedly fixed myself up, wiped the tears away.

      i ran down the stairs and opened the door as quickly as possible. my heart started to beat out of my chest when i saw gilbert standing a foot away from me. he had a gray hat and a red and black plaid jacket. he also had two bags in his hands.

"oh, greetings gilbert. what brings you here tonight?" i ask excitedly.

"hey y/n. mrs. landcaster brought us all of the leftovers from the feast today, and we realized quickly that we had far too much. i thought i might stop by and give you and your family some food," he said cheerfully.

"why, thank you very much gilbert! i'm sure my father would appreciate this," i say to him, my eyes stuck on his.

     i took the bags of food from his hands and set them on the kitchen table. i motion my hand for him to come in. he walked in a started to remove his clothing.

"just set your jacket and hat on that hook. my father and jonathan are in town right now, and they won't be home for a while," i say.

"that's fine. we've got the whole house to ourselves," he said staring at me seductively with a small smirk shining from his lips.

     butterflies made my body shake, and i feel my eyes get wide.

"gilbert... what do you mean?" i asked nervously.

"what do you think i mean?"

     my stomach churned at the thought of him and me... doing something. having a relationship... kissing??

"i don't know.. but i don't think we're close enough for anything like that yet" i said firmly.

he gave me a look with a mix of sarcasm and disbelief.

"that's not what i meant!! i was meaning we can be loud, run around, and we can talk about personal things.. that we might not want others to hear" he said.

i sighed in relief.
i was glad he was here. i need some company right about now.

"well, what would you like to talk about?" i asked.

"i want to talk about school. i wanted to warn you about a boy named billy. he can be awfully rude and disrespectful, and he especially is to girls. and i'm hoping that the girls will like you. i'm almost one-hundred percent sure that they will, because i like you."

     i was dying at this point. he likes me? wait, does he??