Welcome to California

Fifteen

Grayson's POV

Sunday 1AM

I knock on Ethans door but he doesn't open, so I knock again. "Ethan?" I ask through the door knowing that he hears me but chooses to ignores me. "Ethan I need help... I...I fucked up!" He still doesn't reply so I shout again. I pull open the foor and walk in.

Ethans laying on his bed with his phone in his hands. "She left." He says with a cold voice but I don't let it irritate me. "Ethan...?" - "WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU WANT GRAYSON?" He scream and I pull back in shook. "E, I need to talk to you."

I pause, while a million thoughts rush through my mind. I feel my heavy thoughts slowly settling down in my head and how my brain slowly starts to believe it. It starts to believe that my heart is able to love again. A cold shiver running down my back and try to warm my arms by rubbing them.

"I think I love her, Ethan." - "Dude, you're sick the girl just fucked you and left you there unfinished and frustrated and you think you love her?!" He sits up in his bed and looks at me with pity. "She makes me feel something, you know." I sit down on his bed and put my head in my hands.

"Grayson..." he pauses and I look up to him. "She deserves better." His words hit me like a truck, but even though his words hurt I know that he's right. I'm not good enough for Blake and I'll never be. No matter how hard I try I won't ever give her what she deserves.

I have so much feeling for her, god I even have feeling for her and I don't know how to treat her. She probably hates me rightnow and to be honest she has every fucking right to treat me like this. I lied to her, I pretended to be her boyfriend. But we were so happy, but there was so much love and we had feeling.

I stand up an walk out of the door, Ethan screems my name but I ignore it. I lay on my bed and turn on my belly. I close my eyes and breathe in the smell. The smell of her, the smell of love, the smell of hope, the smell of whst I could've had and the smell of what I lost. I turn to the side and grab my phone.

I dial the number, the wrong number and hold the phone to my ear.

Grayson: Hello?
Alessia: What do you want?
Grayson: Fuck.
Alessia: At your place?
Grayson: Yes.
Alessia: Fine.

I hang up the phone and walk back to Ethan's room. "Alessia is coming over." I inform him through the door and go to the kitchen, wher I open a bottle of jack and drink straight of it. Just when I wanna take another sip Ethan walks up behind me and looks at me with a disgusted look. "You are fucking gross." - "No, I don't have a heart." Liar, I think and tale another sip. "Where are you going?" I ask. "Cameron." I nod and let myself down on the couch.

I take a few moresups and put away the empty bottle of jack. Fuck, I can feel the alcohol running through my body. My view gets blurry and everything I hear sounds like it's miles away.

***
Sunday 3AM

After a while the door opens and Alessia walks in. I stand up and walj towards her. I almost stumble but catch my balance fast and take her in for a hug. "Hey, how are ya?" She asks but I quickly tell her to shut up. She glares at me for a short moment but than takes off her jacket and throws it on the floor.

I pick her up and carry her to the bathroom. "Take offyour cloths." I say and she does. I pull her under the shower and push hher against the wall. I hold down her wrist while picking her up with the other hand.

She puts her legs around my whips and I threat into her. There's bo feeling at all but I just keep going. I don't need no fucking feeling, while fucking a chick. I go faster and she starts screaming out loud. I hold my hand over her mouth, trying to make her shut up and pushe her against the wall even harder.

I can feel my high coming and go a bit slower, she has already cum and now just holds onto me and moves a little bit. When I've come too I step out of the shower, wrapp a towl around my body an exit the room.

I let myself down on the bed and close my eyes until I hear the door open. Alessia walks in and lays down next to me. "Wanna go again?" She asks cuddling up on me. "Not really, you can leave actually." She looks at me as if I'm jokin but when she realizes that I'm not she gets up takes out some of my cloths and laus back down next to me. "I'll stay here, alright?" I shake my head but she ignores it, so I turn around and try to fall asleep.

She cuddles up on me a few times and I shake her off until she finally falls asleep. I quickly het out of the bed and walk to the kitchen were I once again open a bottle of whiskey. I take a few sips and than go back to my bedroom.

Alessia lays on my bed with my blanket wrapped around her. I shake her shoulder and she quickly wakes up, she's never been a heavy sleeper. "What do you want?" She hisses at me without turning her head and I tell her to get naked.

She quickly does and I walk towards her and fuck her once again. When I'm done she rolls off me and lays her head in my chest. I want to shake her off but she doesn't let me.

***
10AM

I pull together when my alarn goes off and grab my phone. I turn off the alarm and scroll through my messages.

Blake: We need to talk...

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