Another Boring Teen's Journal

Mon, Dec 18th, 2017

It's 2 am. And I'm very anxious.
But not really for a bad reason, at least not for me. The thing here is, as you know I've been looking for some way to get out of this world for a while, so I've liked some Facebook pages and joined groups and after a few weeks, finally today I contacted someone who can sell me just what I need. The problem here is that he won't deliver his product right at my door, since it's a little illegal here, so he must be very discreet.
We agreed to meet on Wednesday in a speciphic subway station. Unfortunately, it is a little far from my house, so I can't go walking there, besides the fact that it's incredibly insecure for a woman to walk around the city here. Also I don't have a car and I can't drive. Absolutely nobody can take me there since no one knows about it. And I don't know which bus to take there. Hence, I've come into the conclusion to take a cab, despite it being more expensive and with the risk of being kiddnaped.
I still have some days to plan it, and I have in mind that nobody will be at home then, so as soon as I can be back at least at 1pm everything will be fine.
Despite everything, including my excitement, I'm very scared to go there. I have a really high risk of being kiddnaped. I've been scared all my life about it. Of course I won't go with any eye-catching clothes but still...
Not counting the fact that I'm going to spend $530 pesos in weed, illegal weed. I just hope it's worth it. This guy seems really formal so all I've got to do is trust him and try not being kidnapped.
I just have to go there, pay, get my product and get the hell outta there. I guess he thinks I've done this before because I ordered a big amount of it so I really have to play cool, to look relaxed.
I'm very exited but also scared to death. And if for some reason my mother is in the house on Wednesday morning, everything goes to hell.
Anyway, wish me luck. I'll keep writing to tell what happens.