Even if I'm Bisexual

Chapter 26

Jack Point Of View

"Yes ..."

I stopped on purpose and wrinkled my forehead. My eyes also widened because of her answer.

"Yes, no. " She said making me confused.
Huh? What's that answer ?!
Yes but no?

"YES I'm happy when I see him, YES I'm hurt when he avoids me or maybe he's with someone else, YES when he approaches me my heart beats faster and I feel like we're the only two people in the world, YES I'm disgusted when he's happy with... with others but NO because I DON'T know what to call it, I DON'T know if it called love, I DON'T know if I love him, I DON'T know how I feel. I'm confused and still finding the answer. "she replied.

But you already have Kieffer what else do you want? You're Tomboy but your strength to be a timer, you're driving me crazy!

I would have left in but she spoke again.

"I want to know how I really feel. I want to be enlightened on what's happening to me. I want to be with you to discover how I feel." I heard her say.

I just stayed in my position with my back to her and close to the back stage door.

"But how can that happen if you avoid me? How can that happen if you don't want me to explain? how can that happen if you think it's wrong? I want to approach you but you avoid every time we meet, you deviate whenever our eyesight, you avoid me right away every time we're together like I'm just wind. "I heard her say.

I'm just doing what's right.
I don't want to hurt myself. I'm saving myself.

"I want to tell you the truth but you're leading me if*sob*I'm sorry to you but you're avoiding me*sob*"

Is she crying?
Why is she crying?

This time I turned around and when I turned around she was in front of me I could see that she was crying and staring at me.

I want to hug her but everything is still messy.

She took one of my hands and looked at me.

"I was a lesbian then that you have changed me now. I was a lesbian then looking for beautiful women but you changed me, I was a lesbian then who was passionate but you changed me." she said while holding my hand.

"I'm a person like you who make mistakes and get hurt, but I just want to tell you in front of the students here who are watching --" she said while crying, This is the first time i saw tibo crying and it is because of me.

"--That what you think is wrong, That what you think is
not true, That everything you think is meaningless.
Because the truth is ...." She said while looking at me.

"Kieffer and I don't have relationship and we will never be.
No kiss happened because that will never happen.
And one more thing.
There is no one else who owns me but YOU."

I stiffened in my stance, I feel differently at these times because of what she said.

"I'm annoyed because days past and you still avoiding me, days past but you still not listening to me." she said and smiled then let go of my hand.

"I'm sorry because --" I didn't finish what she was going to say, i hugged her.
It's a very tight hug.
I feel like we've been separated from each other for so long which is true.

"Shhhhh, you don't have to apologize, I should apologize because I'm the one avoiding the two of us, I didn't let you explain so SORRY." I said now tears welled up in my eyes.

"I'm sorry because I ignored you.
I'm sorry because I didn't listen to you, sorry." I said again while hugging her.

I don't care if we will win or lose in this compitition
I don't care if someone is taking a video of us.
I don't care if many people can watch us as long as, it's important I know the truth.

That I have hope.

I pulled away and faced Tibo, wiping away the tears from her.

"That's right please don't cry anymore because the guilt is eating me for what I did." I said while wiping her tears.

"I hope you come with me. I
hope we're just this close to each other every day.
I hope you don't lose me.
I hope you come with me to find out how I really feel for you." she said.

"I'll be with you anywhere.
I'll never leave you and I'll never let you go.
I'll never be
separated from you." I said while smiling.

A loud shriek and scream we heard from those watching us.

Angry
Annoyed
Fun

That's how I feel.

Angry for Kieffer because he insulted me in front of Alpha.
Annoyed for myself that I couldn't give Alpha an explanation
And
I'm happy because now I know that I have hope in her.

If I have anything else to be thankful for, it's
just two.

Lord and Garry.
Lord who gave me a friend like Garry.
And Garry who is cold but proud of plans.

Because of him, Tibo and I got along and also because of him, I knew I had hope now.

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