Impractical One Shots - Joker(X)Joker

Doubts Part 2 - Vulquinn

Quinns pov

It had been a month since I last saw Sal, a whole month since he left.

I hadn't left the house. I hadn't spoken to anyone, I hadn't showered or slept. I was a wreck.

But Joe had forced his way into my apartment and found me drunk on the floor, he'd thrown me in the shower, got me dressed and dragged me to a bar.

"you need to get out the house quinn, you need to see people." he'd said to me, I had objected but still found myself sitting with Joe and Murray in the karaoke bar.

I continued to drink, shrugging and grunting at everything that was said. I was about to get up and go home when I heard it.. That laugh, the laugh I hadn't heard in a month. And with that he was here. Sal was here. I brought my gaze up to his face and the minute his eyes met mine I watched his expression change completely.

Fuck I missed him, I wanted nothing more than to just grab him and pull him into me but that wasn't an option cause he wasn't alone. Firstly who the fuck was this dude and why the fuck was he touching my Sal!

"sal..i.." I began but words escaped me. I couldn't take my gaze away from the man who had his hands on Sal. Who was he?

"guys this is Paul" as if reading my mind sal spoke.

I watched as the guy squeezed in beside Murray, laughing and chatting with my best friends.. I tore my gaze away from that to look to sal who was still standing..

"sal.. Can we talk" I asked cautiously, alcohol thick in my voice.

"you're drunk quinn, I don't want to talk to you" he spoke, God the tension was killing me.

"I may be drunk sal but I know how I feel and I want to speak to you" I pleaded.

"not now quinn, just let me be" he sighed, exasperated.

Fuck this, I needed to tell him I was sorry. Even though I'm drunk I know that I still love him and I need him back. Fuck that's the reason I am drunk.

And with that I decided that if he won't let me talk then am gonna sing. And I headed towards the DJ. I gave him the song and climbed on stage. Fuck what was I doing, I can't sing. No. He will listen this way I told myself.

I grabbed the mic and spoke "if you don't want to listen to me talk then listen to me sing.." and with that the music began.

I hoped that he would listen to the song, I hope he would listen to the words cause this was my last and only idea. I had been listening to this song since the day he left in hopes that he'd somehow hear and come back. I had sent it to him and everything but heard nothing back.

This wasn't going to work but I found myself beginning to sing.

I guess this isn't our time
I guess this isn't our place
I guess you made all the running, baby
But I couldn't finish the race

I sang, my hands shaking at how out my comfort zone I was. But I looked at sal and he looked at me. He was listening. I could see the look of pain on his face. But I kept singing. The bar was silent.

You've been trying to hide it
And I've been missing the signs
While you were crossing your fingers and hoping
I've just been crossing the lines. And if you gotta go, then I get it
If you're gonna leave, then goodbye
And there'll be no chance to forget it
We are connected, you and I.

I kept my eyes on sal the whole time, pouring every emotion I was holding into the song. It must have sounded awful but I knew he was hearing it cause I could see his eyes shine with tears brimming. And that killed me cause I don't want to be the reason he's crying anymore. I felt the alcohol all but leave my system. His sad expression was enough to sober any man up.

As long as you make it back to me
Take all the time you need
You can love who you want
You can love till you don't even think about me, As long as you make it back to me
Right now I'm not what you need
I can learn to be more than who I was before, wait and see. Just make it back to me.

I chocked back my tears and kept my gaze on sal, the look on his face is enough to break anyone's heart. How could I tear down such a strong man. What have I done to him. I am so utterly and uncontrollably in love with him.

Are you better without me?
Are you falling apart?

Are you reaching the end of the story?
'Cos I'm trying to rewrite the start

And if you gotta go, then I get it
If you gotta leave, then goodbye
There'll be no chance to forget it, oh
We are connected, you and I

I feel every word of the song and watch as the tears spill from Sal's eyes, but he's walking towards the stage none the less. And the closer he gets the more frightened I get. My hands are sweating and shaking and my voice is cracking but I need to finish the song. I need him to hear me.

For all the times I let you down
And said I never would
I'll right those wrongs, turn it around
And love you like I should
As long as you make it back to me
Take all the time you need
You can love who you want
You can love till you don't even think about me
As long as you make it back to me
Right now I'm not what you need
I can learn to be more than who I was before
Wait and see
Just make it back to me

I finish the song and watch sal climb onto the stage to be with me. I hear the patrons of the bar clapping but all I can focus on is that sal is here and he heard me. I can't stop the tears that are pouring from my eyes as he stops in front of me. I want to reach out and wipe away his tears but I can't. I'm stuck in place, frozen stiff. But he comes closer, he's so close I can feel his breath fanning a cross my face and he reaches out and he wipes away my tears and I cant help but let my face sink into his hands. And before I know it I'm on my knees sobbing uncontrollably.

"sal I'm sorry" I choke out "I'm so sorry" I don't know if he hears me so I look up and am surprised by the fact that he is kneeling in front of me.

"I love you sal." that's about all I can manage.

"I love you too Brian." and that's all I need to hear before pulling him into me and in that moment I swore I was never gonna let him go.