How Silent Love Can Be

Chapter 7: It's a Done Deal for Eternity

Dipper's POV:

I said it, the one thing I never thought I would say to him even if my life is on the line. "I forgive you Bill." We are so close together, we are in the waltz position. I once would have been flipping out from anger and disgust and fear, but now my heart is flipping out and I am blushing. I hide the blush with my teary eyes, because I am so happy and relieved that my trauma can be put behind me. He hugs me to try and stop the tears, but one still falls to the white floor. He asks me something that no one has ever gotten the answer to, "Can you tell me what traumatized you?"

It was such a big thing in the past, but it was behind me now. "Get us some chairs, I want to sit down for this." I tell him. He follows instructions and two chairs, one my blue and one his yellow, appear directly under us so we just have to bend to sit. Once seated I start the story. "It was just a normal day, working at the shack and helping Ford. This was after the Sock Opera and I was over you possessing my body. I started to think about why you did this to us, and they were all over the place. They ranged from personal amusement to making our life miserable to helping us in the future. I really thought about that last one. At first I didn't think so because of what you did to my body, went to the hospital for that by the way, but thought 'what if this is just his way of making friends or playing around?' I didn't know because you are a demon and I'm not, so I had no personal experience with what goes on in your head.

"You kept coming to secretly see me and I never told anyone, not even Mable. I knew they would freak out if I told them, and I still wanted to see where this would go; friendship or disaster. You kept coming and I assumed we were not friends but more than acquaintances. After that point I just pretended to be angry when you teased me because I wasn't and it seemed like you liked to get that expression from me. Everything was fine, you didn't offer deals or threaten my family, you didn't seem like you were about to do what you did. Then it happened.

"You imprisoned my sister in her own dreams and turned my Grunkle into a gold statue. Chaos was everywhere and it seemed you were oblivious to the bloodshed from everyone. I lost up to 60% or more of my blood trying to stay alive and away from your eye bats. I was so broken and upset that it was hard to do all that because I thought I would break down everytime I woke up. Then when we faced you in the Fearamid, you acted like my life meant less than nothing, like you didn't spend anytime with me where we weren't enemies. You tried to kill me and my sister, then you destroyed my Grunkle's mind because we were trying to get rid of you.

"After we thought you were gone I was messed up. I was sad I lost what I considered a friend and I was betrayed by that same friend. I thought there was finally someone who wasn't family or a family friend who liked me, a friend that was originally mine that would be friends with my family later. I was upset because of everything and it hurt to speak about it or think about it, but that's all everyone tried to do. They just decided I had trauma because I never spoke about it. That's all they ever tried to do was ask about it whenever we talked, so that lead to not talking at all. I never lied to you, it was all your fault just not in the way everyone thinks it was." I finished, out of breath and relieved I got it off my chest finally.

Bill's POV:

I was shocked. That's literally all I can say. He thought we were friends and I tried to kill him and his family. If my jaw wasn't clenched, it would be on the floor. I can't believe I had a friend that I didn't make because of a deal, and I blew it. The guilt was unimaginable, more than when I first found out about his "condition". I couldn't believe my ears, it was..... I have no words. I am so sad, things could have been entirely different. 

I was brought out of my daze by Pinetree hugging me. I thought it was for his own sake, but realized my human form was leaking from its eyes. I guess after everything he still wanted to make everyone around him happy, you would usually think that of Shooting Star but Pinetree did it in his own way. I sniffed my runny nose and dried my eyes, then I hugged him back. I whispered to him "I'm so sorry. I'm so so sorry."