An IU x GD fanfic.
Here they are playing their own persona as the singer IU and BIGBANG GD that we know.
This is their conversation, their interaction, and their newly found comfort around each other.
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GD POV
Geborgenheit (German)
(n) The perfect mixture of cosy, safe, warm, and comfortable
It hit you like a wave. It enveloped you like a rolling fog. It washed over you like the tide. Heat. Seoul on summer. It was hot.
Summer 2015. It was the first time I got a glance at Jieun's real life persona. Enduring the scorching heat, we jumped on a slight blast of Haha hyung and Haesol's performance rehearsal and then screamed the tunes of 'I Have An Affair' on the stage.
I've come from series of distressed and sleepless nights trying to tied together MADE--it wasn't even tied well until one year later--but that day, that night, between sweats and tight ladder stage, I've said to her, "That was brilliant." She tilt her head back and answered, "It was perfect-so very- I'm afraid it was like a midsummer night's dream."
Eloquence, eloquence! I almost kissed her on the forehead, drunk on stage euphoria, half conscious-half dizzy, until I saw Park Myung Soo's hand tapping my shoulder.
I must be as honest as I can. That was the first time, post-break up, I felt a weird kind of happiness. I felt lonely and content at the same time. That is rare. That is special.
"It's okay," I say--perhaps the biggest lie of all. But it's one of those things you do. You say something like "It's okay" not because it is, in fact, okay, but because you're hoping these words will somehow make it okay. Even though they never, ever do.
"Everyone has that moment, I think, the moment when something so ... momentous happens that it rips your very being into small pieces. And then you have to stop. For a long time, you gather your pieces. And it takes such a very long time, not to fit them back together, but to assemble them in a new way, not necessarily a better way. More, a way you can live with until you know for certain that this piece should go there, and that one there."
"People need other people to feel things for them," she says. "It gets lonely to feel things all by yourself. Thanks for feeling it with me."
We're on our way to the Yakushima Airport. I am heading to catch MADE concert rehearsal in Tokyo and she was going back to Seoul.
"I really appreciate what you have been done with me. It's beyond comforting. Thank you, really, for being a great support system I can fall back during this strange, strange time, oppa, " she says, almost like a goodbye, when we are arriving at the departure gate.
"You made my life a lot easier. It's unreal. Now, it's time to move on, right? To our life? We'll meet again, hope in better state of mind."
"Send my regards to the other oppas. I owe them your time, " she said.
I wasn't really sure by what she said at that moment. I hugged her.
"Ji Eun-ah, if I may say one last thing before you go... life is now, this very moment, and that it is inexhaustible and unknowable. I know we'll meet again, we'll also part once more, " I said. "I hope you get where you're going, and be happy when you do."
