**ANDREW'S POV**
I heard a loud ringing sound that prevented me from hearing anything apart from it. I then noticed that I had fallen asleep in class. I raised my head from the desk and looked up. I couldn't hear anything apart from the ringing. The teacher was still talking but no sound was coming from his mouth. I felt sweat coming down from my four head. It was cold and. It Then hit me what was happening. This isn't the first time this has happened and I still remember very cleary what I had done becous of this.
Anxiety filled my bloodstream as i began to get more and more nervous. More cold sweat began to pour down from me. I began to shake in fear that anyone would notice my behavior. Unfortunatly someone did notice.
Ms.Green: UMM. MR.ANGST. DO I HAVE, YOUR ATTENTION??
The lovely teacher scolded me from the other side of the Classroom. This caused a handfull of students to also notice my strage behavior and they also began to get anxious. I needed to get out of here...ASAP.
Andrew: Y-yes miss! I-I-I just...need to go to the bathroom.
Ms.Green: Well why didn't you're dumbass say so? you may go.
I got up from my seat and hurried out of the classroom with my bag. In said bag I had my medication that I should take whenever i'm nervous. I Legitimately forgot COMPLETELY about the medication. I stepped into the guys bathroom and locked the door. I then checked if there was anybody else in the stalls and, Thank god, There was nobody inside. I took out my pills and threw my bag aside. I struggled to open the bottle since I couldn't stop shaking. I then managed to open the bottle and take out two pills.
"take you're pills Andy! Remember, you need them to be normal...you do want to be normal, right?"
"yes mommy"
"Andrew. Come here son."
10 YEARS AGO
Mom gave dad a serious look and then turned to me with a smile. She gave me the two big pills and smiled at me. I then turned to dad as he gave me a glass full of water.
dad: Andrew. I know it'll be difficult for you t maintain this secret and I know you want to be normal but...You are not normal son. Neither is our family. You MUST learn to coup with that.
Andrew: B-but...
I looked at the pills worried. Mom saw this and immediately hugged me.
Mom: I know Its Difficult Andy but...You can do this. I know you can
Mom gave me a smile. I know she didn't mean it but atb the time I thought she did. So, I drank the pills.
It's been Difficult growing up a psychopath. With you're family ALSO full of psychopaths. And wanting to be normal and just grow up like everybody else was all i ever wanted. Guess wishing for the impossible is just a waste of time and just plane stupid. You see, when I was kid, you would usually see all of these happy and dumb kids running around and just being... kids. I on the other hand was the complete opposite of that. I didn't laugh or smile. I didn't cry or whine when I fell and got hurt or when i didn't get something. I didn't want to play with other kids and I even struggled to get mad. Frankly, I kept on wishing and wishing that I, one day, would be accepted as normal.
One day, I found out about the internet and what was socially accepted as "normal" and what was "weird". I found myself on a news article that was talking about the LGBT community. In my 15 year old numb but desperate to be normal mind thought "hey, This is popular! maybe this is what I need to do to be normal". So, I came out as gay. Now, at the time, I didn't fully comprehend what was the negative reaction to the homophobic/religious people. So you could imagine all of the bullying and neglect i got for this.
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