The Ponytail Stranger

I love you

"Hey Jay, do you want to hangout after school? I have this clearing in the forest me and Nev go to everyday but she's going to be busy. It be a bit lonely with no one to talk to," I said, my ears feeling uncomfortably hot.
"Uh..s-sure. I c-can just meet you there, j-just send me the c-coordinates to my Tabe." Jay avoided my eyes for some reason, looking down at his drawing instead.
"Hm? Cant we just walk there together?" I said dissapointed, but almost regretted saying it at all.
"I have s-something I have to do before I leave the school. It takes a little while and I don't want you to wait for me, so you can just meet me there." He hid his face completely behind his sketchbook now, I was beginning to get concerned.
"Its fine, I will wait at the front of the school okay?" I said, and he peeked his head back out from behind his sketchbook and nodded. He began to draw again and a sparkle came into his eyes, and he relaxed a bit, he was almost always tensed up, except when he was drawing.
His eyes were beautiful and sparkly and his mouth curved slightly into a smile, his cheeks had taken a pink shade, it was really cute, I wanted to hug him.
I looked away and my face heated. I can't.
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I walked around the halls as I waited for the text from Jay, he said that he would text me when he was done with whatever he was doing. I decided that since literally no one else was in the school except a few kids, and none of them were within earshot, I would vent a bit.
I sighed.
"I love Jay." I said slightly quiet, just in case. I almost teared up, I was so glad I could say it out loud. I decided to say it again, it felted great.
"I love-"
"I-I'm sorry! I'm sorry!! p-please stop!! IM SORRY!!" A familiar voice yelled and screamed frantically. They were choking and crying loudly.
"Say it louder you little coward!!" I heard Damian yell at the person.
"I-I'm s-sorry. P-please-" the person started balling frantically. I run towards the noise, I turn a corner and I stop. Anger fills my eyes.
"Get away from Jay. NOW!!" I glare intensely at Damian.
"A-Aaron!" Jay was crying, he had cuts all over him again, and bruises too.
"Sh- are you always going to be around him now?" Damian got closer to Jay, thinking I wouldnt noticed, he looked at Jay, and while he was turning back to look at me, I rushed in front of Jay.
He punched me but I deflected it and punched him back, then kicked him back onto the wall, knocking the breath out of his lungs, I kicked him again, and was going to keep going, but I felt a hand on my arm and I stopped, I looked at Jay, with anger still filled up in my eyes.
"Its okay, I'm okay. You can stop." He was still crying, and his face was red and puffy, with the additional scratch on his cheek. I calmed down at the sight of him.
"Lets go, I have a first aid kit in my bag." I grab out my Tabe, hesitate, and hug him against me, I felt my cheeks heat up, but ignore them and press the button on my Tabe. We were enveloped in my usual blue pixels.
He was looking up and me with his eyes sparkling and his cheeks a nice shade of pink, he looked adorable, and my face felt like fire. I looked out upon all the colorful towers around us, he looked out as well, his eye glimmering in a way I have never seen. I hugged him tighter, and to my surprise he put his arms around me too. The blue envelopes us again, but all I could see was his eyes when he looked back up at me.
I realize we were still staring at each other, and I break the gaze, looking around us to see we were already on the hill.
"We are here" I said, but I didn't move.
"Uh..y-your still h-hugging m-me." He mumbles into my shirt. His face still very pink, maybe even darker than before.
"O-oh s-sorry." I laughed nervously and let him go, then sat down on the grass, he followed and sat next to me. I turn to Jay and grab the first aid kit out from my bag, I start by patching up his legs and knees. I glance up at him, he was looking up at the sky. The sky was almost clear, a beautiful baby blue with angelic white clouds here and there, and the sun was slowly inching towards the horizon. I continue patching him up, eventually I get to his face, with only a scratch, but I could tell it was a deep one, not deep enough to leave a scar thankfully. But it was still relatively deep and it was bleedimg quite a bit too.
I got out some stuff to clean the cut and when I went to clean it, Jay winced in pain.
"Are you okay?!" I said concerned.
"O-oh..y-yeah." He looked away nervously. I continued to clean the cut, then got out a bandaid and opened it, then carefully place it onto his cheek, I smoothed it out so it would stay there, I went to glance into his eyes, but he was looking at me and my eyes got stuck. My face was only inches away and my hand stayed on his cheek. I looked at his sparkling blue eyes, they were deep and dark like the ocean, with bright blue highlights, they were breath taking. His eyes began to tear and so did mine, we both began to laugh while tears flowed down our faces, I sat down next to him, and he leaned on me.
"What are we doing?" He said his voice thick with sadness and...disapointment?
"I don't know." I replied looking as the sun sets before us.
"Why are you laughing?" Jay asked me. I could feel his warm tears on my arm.
"Because I know something amazing." I replied, watching the sky turn from a bright blue to purple and orange and a bunch of other colors and shades.
"Why were y-you crying?" Jay asked.
"Because I cant h-have that amazing thing." I let the tears continue to fall down my face.
"Why were you laughing and crying?" I asked him.
"The same r-reason you a-are." Jay choked and began to cry some more.
"I doubt that...Can I sing?" I asked him, and he nodded.
"If I could tell him~" I started, but then stopped when Jay turned his head up to look at me, I turned to look at him as well, he wasn't crying anymore, but his face was red and puffy.
"I know that song...Don't you mean 'her'?" Jay asked.
"No." I replied and he smiled and leaned back on me.
"O-oh." He said and I pulled my legs to my chest, and he moved to sit in front of me, his legs pulled to his chest as well.
"I think you are going to hate me in a few minutes." Jay said, and he began to cry again. An aching pain shot into my chest.
"I could never hate you" I replied, trying not to let the pain, which was the worst pain I had ever experienced in my life, overtake me.
"You say that now, but once the words leave my mouth, you will be disgusted by me just like everyone else I've ever told." He continued to cry and I felt the pain pushing tears into my eyes.
"I..Aaron I dont want to be friends, its too painful, I hate it..I-I just cant take it anymore!" My heart dropped down from my chest and the pain exploded in my chest.
"I dont like you because I- why are you crying?!" He quickly crawled up to me.
"I'm crying because you don't like me. I'm crying because everything hurts, and not like my fights, it hurts so much more. It always hurts. Its hurt since the day I met you, whenever you arent next to me it hurts, whenever I know you cant be mine, it hurts! It hurts so much and I want it to stop. I want you to be mine and no one else's and I know that's selfish and wrong on multiple different levels but I cant help it!" I let all the tears pour out of me as my chest ached and ached and ached. It felt like someone was stabbing my heart a hindred times over.
"I love you so much!" I cried and my vision was nothing by a blur of tears and blurry colors faded together.
"Stop crying please!" I hear Jay say, his voice thick with happiness and pain.
"It hurts to see you cry." Jay said and I wipe my tears out of my eyes and try to calm down.
"It hurts when I see you cry too." I reply, looking at his face, tears flowing down it like a waterfall. I put my hand on his face and wipe his tears out of his eyes.
"I love you too." He says and pulls me into a hug.