The BULLY Beside ME

Part 8: Lies

Lies...

We can't help ourselves from lying can't we? We even lie to our friends, relatives, and even loved ones. Some lies are good, some are bad, but...lies are still lies aren't they?

We tend to lie to either save someone or to keep them from the dangerous world outside and some of us lie to destroy someone or to lower their reputation. There are many kinds lies.

Me? I'll be honest. I do lie, even today. I lie to keep myself from interactions. Just like.

"Are you okay?"

But with a simple "Yes" can convince them. Why did I even say yes when I'm dying inside?

There's this one kind of lie that I do to myself everyday. It is to lie to myself. I keep on keeping myself from the truth. You know why? It is because the truth hurts, and we all know that.

I keep on trying, striving and keep being motivated but the thing is...I was just lying to myself, no wonder why I keep on trying on something that I can't even achieve.

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Miku's POV

I heard a yell at the other side. Echoes geeting weaker as my vision started to blur. Then I suddenly heard a blood curdling scream, it was screaming for help...but no one came, the voice came from a lone blue-haired little girl holding a ragged teddy bear
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"Shit" I mumbled as I suddenly woke up from my slumber. I took a quick look at the dirty white painted room and I was not familiar with it.

A sudden thought came up to my mind and I sighed "I thought I was dead" I said blankly.

I got up from my bed and stopped when I noticed a tube pinned to my hand...dextrose? Oh...right...I collapsed this afternoon. I stood up and felt a slight ache at my head but managed to control it. I took my few steps to the door when the nurse interrupted me.

"Where are you going miss?" said the nurse

"Uhh... I'm just gonna take a quick walk to the rooftop" I said as I flashed a quick smile

She looked at me from head to toe and smiled "Well I suppose you are in a normal state right now, quick walks are healthy so I'm giving you my permission...just come back quick okay?" She said cheerfully

I silently nodded and opened the door to get out from the room as I brought the dextrose stand (I don't know what term to use :'v). I quickly made my way to the rooftop as I slowly stepped my foot on the floor, it was really tiring, I didn't took the elevator you know?

As I reached the rooftop, the cold strong breeze greeted me, making it a little harder to walk in my condition. I held at the metal bars at the edge of the floor. I moved my head to see the busy streets below me, damn, this building is big. Oh, how I wanted to jump off from this building, no one would care, right?

I suddenly got the urge to jump off but something's telling me to stay alive. I tightened the grip of the metal bars with my trembling hand. I started to ascend slowly from the bars, I was about to continue when something came up to my mind.

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The little girl giggled as she twirled in circles, adoring the new dress her mother bought.

"So?" A soft voice asked

"I love it mommy! Thank you so much" the child went to her mother and hugged her and flashed a big genuine smile.

Everything was perfect at that moment, no problems, obstacles and hindrances, everything was just right, no, everything was perfect. A silent day at the meadow with her beloved mother was all she ever asked for.

"Miku?" the woman asked while stroking her hand through her child's beautiful teal hair.

"Hm?" The little girl hummed in response.

"Promise me to stay alive no matter what?" the woman said

The little girl looked at her with baffled eyes but said "Yes ma!" she tackled her mother with another embrace, though, she was still confused on why her mother would make her promise such an easy task, she thought, but still smiled like any innocent child would do.

Little did she know, that life isn't something she imagined, that the promise that she made wasn't just any task, it was a difficult task.

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Realization then hit me like a bullet. I sighed and discontinued on what I was about to do. "Fuck promises..." I mumbled under my breath. I decided to go back to my room and rest, my body is now tired with all this drama and crap.

I opened the door and saw a familiar blonde figure. "Uh...hey?" He said. I slowly made my way to my bed and rested, I then moved my focus to the blonde.

"What a surprise" I said blankly

He let out an awkward laugh while averting his eyes away from me. "Here, I brought you these" He went to a cabinet near me and placed the basket of fruits. "And...my sister wanted to give you this" He then took out a small letter with cute designs but before he could hand it to me, the door slammed open.

"MIKU! HOW ARE YOU? ARE YOU ALRIGHT? WHY IS MY LITTLE CINNAMON ROLL IN THE HOSPITAL?!" Rin came in and bombarded me with lots of questions, some of which...I didn't answer.

Rin suddenly noticed Len's presence and stared for a while then said "Oh, hey there Len" she turned her focus back to me and talked about things I couldn't even understand.

I heard Len sigh and then he stood up and said "Um..hey... I'm gonna get some lunch-"

Rin suddenly stood up straight and looked at Len and said with a loud voice "I'LL DO IT~" and then she went to the door, she gave confused Len a wink and mumbled something I can't hear, his face suddenly turned red after that then followed by an annoyed look, which made me kinda curious, then Rin slammed the door shut, leaving me and Len alone...again.

Awkward silence surround us, I was looking at Len while Len was looking away with his pink tinted face. I shrugged and broke the silence with a little sentence. "I'll take a rest for a bit, just wake me up if Rin comes back" he nodded and I closed my eyes to rest, but no matter how hard I tried, I couldn't sleep.

I then heard some footsteps going away, the sound came to a halt and then the person sighed and said "You're lucky that I love you" the sound of the steps came back and I heard a creak of the door followed by a soft thump.

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