The Vamps Fanfiction.

Details in the Fabric - Jason Mraz.

I burst through the double doors leading into the main hall where the boys were playing. I didn't even know what I was going to do, but I kept walking, past Em, past fans, up the steps and onto the stage. I walked behind the drum set as Tris stopped and turned on his chair to face me. I cant believe I thought this boy didn't care, those piercing blue eyes staring back at me and for the first time I could see it all. I could see he was broken but I could also see the love he had for me. This is insane, I was always the one who loved everyone when no one loved me. I was the one left broken and I was the one who vowed to never be with or trust a boy, I was the lesbian.

I stepped closer as he dropped his drum sticks and placed his arms around the bottom of my waist to pull me closer. I do care and so does he. I placed my hands around his neck, one hand slowly playing with the back of his hair and I began laughing. I don't even know why but I did, my laugh turned into tears as I leant forward and pulled Tristan into a sudden kiss. It felt warm, meaningful and safe. What did I do? I cant believe what I had done.

"Your stupid you know that right?" Tris asked as we drove to the hotel after the gig. I am just so grateful and glad I got my second chance, my happy ever after.

"Wait hold on, we were together 5 months & you never asked, I got suspicious!" I laughed while playing with his fingers as he drove.

"Still stupid babe". We got the hotel only to be greeted by fans, of course! Tris got out and came round to help me out, as we walked towards the doors, stopping for fan photos and signings a few girls had some questions.

"OMGOMG ARE YOU GUYS BACK TOGETHER!"

"Yessss, finally im so happy for the both of you!"

"Omg, Trshan are back!" What a horrible 'ship' name .. I never understood those names, they are so silly and I really didn't want one.

We were now in Tris and James' hotel room but everyone had decide to go out for a meal, Em joined them, leaving me and Tris alone to talk and fix things i guess. It felt so good to be lying in his arms again, it felt like nothing else mattered, that i could face anything. I cared for this boy a lot and that scared me as much as it comforted me, i love being with him but what if one day it does end after ive fallen in love? Will i be able to handle the pain or just break down?

We were both lying down in silent, i guess in our own thoughts before we spoke, i circuled his chest with my fingers as i felt him do the same on my back. With the hand he was resting behind his neck he took my hand and began playing with my fingers, I closed my eyes. This calmed me and he knew it. I felt as he began to lightly tickle my hand slowly moving up my arm, it happened so quickly in my mind i didnt respond quick enough. I felt Tris' body stiffen as his fingers came across a few familuar scars up my inner arm, shit.

I instantly frooze hoping that he would ignore it, that he would act like he hadnt felt a thing. I was wrong, so incredibly wrong. I felt Tris jump up straight making me sit up too, i knew what was coming, the questions, the whys. I dont know if i could do this.

"What is this?" He asked still holding onto my arm.

"Tris dont" I snapped while pulling my arm back and standing up off the bed. I walked to the window and just stared out as i knew this wasnt the end.

"Why would you ever hurt your self? What could possibly be so wrong in your life for you to do this? Shan please talk to me" I heard him pace the room before freezing on his last word. I couldn't tell him, could i? He will think i'm mental and want nothing to do with me, but i only got him back, thats not fair!

"I think i should go home now, its late and i have alot of studying to do, my mummy wont want me out too late and i dont wana get yelled at when i do get home" I smiled and walked towards my shoes. Maybe if i ignore it he will drop it? Tris stepped infront of me stopping me in my tracks, he pulled me back by the arm so i was directly facing him, our bodies so close yet so far apart. I couldnt tell him, i couldnt tell anyone exactly how i was feeling because i know it isnt normal.