soju | jjk x jyi

01

Friday.

Finally, I'm going to see him.

I instantly bid my goodbyes to my family, got inside my car and drove away. I've been here in Incheon for the last few days because my parents wanted to spend time with us since they'll be busy again—because of our family's business— and I'll be busy too because it will be the start of summer next week.

I arrived at his apartment building and I couldn't hide my excitement to see him. I got onto the elevator and pressed the number of his floor. I wanted to cry happy tears because I'm going to see him. Then, I remembered that I didn't tell him that I'm coming because I wanted to surprise him and that made my excitement rise to the highest level. When the elevator dings, I immediately walked straight to his apartment. I pulled his key—duplicate key—from my pocket. I hurriedly unclocked his door and ready to surprise him when something stopped me. Junyoung and a girl making out in his apartment. JUNYOUNG AND A GIRL WERE MAKING OUT. I didn't know what to do or say, my whole body just freezed. I could feel the pathetic tears in my eyes. Junyoung probably sensed that someone's watching and glance up. He immediately let go of the girl's crappy mouth and hurriedly stood up.

"Baby, it's not what you think," he quickly said. IT'S NOT WHAT I THINK? THE FUCK.

"Junyoung, that's a fucking cliché thing to say." I ignored him and walked towards the door, ready to leave when he stopped me by shutting the door.

"No. It's a mistake. I'm sorry. Please forgive me," he pleaded. WHAT.THE.ACTUAL.FUCK.

"Mistake? DID YOU REALLY THINK THIS IS A FUCKING MISTAKE?! YOU, MAKING OUT WITH A RANDOM GIRL, IS A FUCKING MISTAKE?!" I shouted. I didn't fucking care if his neighbors heard me. I don't fucking care. "DON'T TELL ME YOU ALSO FUCKING SLEPT WITH EACH OTHER?" That silenced him.

"No. This is a mistake." He glanced at the girl—I almost forgot that she's still here—then looked away when I saw him. I can't believe him.

"Ha. You're insane. You're fucking insane. I can't believe you cheated on me."

"Yein, please. I'm sorry," he pleaded again.

"Stop it. Why did you do this to me? What have I done wrong to you?" I asked him.

"Nothing. You've done nothing wrong. Listen, this is a mistake. I love you, you know that," he answered. BULL FCKING SHIT.

"Oh really? You love me huh? YOU FCKING LOVE ME? YOU FILTHY BASTARD!"

The girl suddenly interrupted, "No. It's not a mistake. He doesn't love you. Junyoung, I thought I am the one you love. You said that we'll be together, officially, once she's back." She looked directly at Junyoung, pleading. I can feel new tears flowing down.

I scoffed. "See? Ha, you thought you won't be caught huh? You asshole. I thought you're a good guy. I thought you fucking love me. You just lied. You just fucking lied." I then looked at the girl—the bitch—and said, "I hope that you and this fcking asshole will be happy and I also hope that karma will get you—the both of you, actually." I pushed him away and left.

I walked towards the elvevator then to my car and cried. I cry and cry and I look so pathetic right now.

I need a breather.