soju | jjk x jyi

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"-LIKE RIGHT NOW! UNNIE! WAKE UP!!!! YOU'VE BEEN SLEEPING FOR THE LAST 20 HOURS!" the voice shouted.

What? I'm sleeping? That's weird.

Yein felt her body being shaken. What is happening? Why is everything all black? Where is Jungkook?

Jungkook.

Jeon-

She opened her eyes. She was welcomed by a worried child. The child looked like she was about to cry. She suddenly enveloped Yein into an embrace. Her shoulders shook and Yein felt wetness in her shoulder. Why is she crying? Hyoin?

"H-Hey, why are you crying?" she asked the crying girl before returning the hug. The girl—Hyoin—tried to calm down in order to speak.

"B-because I-I t-thought you are n-not g-going t-to wake u-up," Hyoin answered, trying hard to speak.

WHAT?! SO I'VE REALLY BEEN SLEEPING? EVERYTHING IS NOT REAL?!

Her chest constricted thinking about the possibility that what happened him and-

WAIT WHAT'S HIS NAME AGAIN? WHY CAN'T I REMEMBER HIS NAME AND HIS FACE?

Yein panicked. She tried to remember everything but the man's face was blurred. Everything—the setting, the happenings—are clear but not his face. How can I fucking forget him?

Hyoin looked at her worriedly. "Sis, are you okay? Why are you crying?" 

Yein touched her face and realized that she was crying. Upon realizing it, she cried harder. Hyoin was startled and immediately hugged her sister. She didn't know what made her sister cry but it's not the time to question her so she just comforted her. Funny how she was the one who was crying a while ago, now it was her sister.

After nearly an hour of crying, Yein calmed down. She pulled away and looked at her sister and asked, "S-so y-youre telling me... I was sleeping? T-the whole t-time?" Her voice shook. Hyoin nodded—still worried and said,"Yes. I've been trying to wake you up but you're not waking up."

"What did I do before I sleep?" Yein asked, wanting to know why it was just a dream when it all felt so real—being with him felt so real. Yein blinked back her tears and tried to focus on her sister's answer.

"You cried when you came her. You didn't remember?" Hyoin looked at her in shock and continued, "We tried to go after you but you locked your door but luckily, I opened it using my hairpin. But I found you sleeping already." 

This confused Yein as to why she was sleeping when she clearly went to the soju place to drink. She remembered why she went there. She remembered her son of a bitch ex. 

Fuck I can't believe I remembered that bitch but I can't remember him.

She chuckled bitterly—trying not to cry. She swallowed the lump in her throat. "So it was not real? E-everything was a... a d-dream?" she looked at her sister with glossy eyes.

 Hyoin looked at her with confused and worried eyes. "What do you mean 'it'?"

Yein realized she didn't know what is the 'it'. She shook her head and smiled weakly. "Nothing. Can you let me have my alone time? I promise I won't sleep." 

Hyoin sighed and nodded but still worried about her sister. "Okay. You're lucky mom and dad are working right now or they would force you to spill everything."

Yein smiled and leaned forward to hug her sister. "Thanks, Hyoin."

Hyoin smiled back and said,"If you need anything, I'll be at the living room doing my homeworks." She walked towards the door but Yein stopped her.

"Can you um, not tell mom and dad?" Yein asked—voice pleading. 

Hyoin just smiled and nodded and right then, Yein was alone in her room. She looked around and sighed. Her tears begging to be released. She put her hand in her beating heart and in that moment, she cried. She cried and cried and cried. 

She cried harder than the day she cried after her ex cheated on her. She cried harder than the day she cried when her pet dog died. She cried for him. She cried for herself. She cried for that beautiful memory. She tried to remember his name, his face, his voice but she couldn't remember any of it. Any of him. So the only thing that she did was to cry and cry. Then, she realized that her feelings are different from what she expected.

"Why can't I remember him?"