THE SHOOTING

Guilty

Lexie

Alex is possibly dying on the table in front of me and I am not even thinking about him. How can he not be the only thing on my mind right now. My boyfriend is bleeding out and I am thinking about whether or not I should leave him for another man. He was just shot! Why am I still thinking about Mark? Why can't I get him out of my head? I am a horrible girlfriend.

Without thinking I reach up and firmly press my lips to Marks. He seems shocked at first, but then starts to kiss back. Soon he realizes what is happening and pulls away. I stare at him in awe and he stares back with wide eyes full of surprise. I can't really blame him I mean for months now I have been totally against the idea of us ever trying to make things work. Now out of the blue I am randomly kissing him while my boyfriend lies on a table bleeding out. I would be surprised too.

"Lex?" Mark looks at me with confusion. "Are you alright?"

I nod my head. "I'm just so sorry that it took me so long to realize how much I still love you and how much we need each other. I guess it took the threat of our lives to really get through to me."

"You still love me?" He asks with disbelief. "Even after everything I put you through."

I nod my head once again. "I love you Mark Sloan. And I never stopped." I don't think I ever saw someone smile as much as I saw him smile when I said those words.

"I love you too, Lexie Grey. But we need to save your boyfriend now." With that he turns back around to continue working on an unconscious Alex. As I focus my attention on Alex, only stealing a few glances at Mark every once in a while.

I shouldn't be happy right now. My boyfriend is shot and dying, but yet I can't help myself. I am happy to be back with Mark. I know I am going to feel very guilty about this.