Hey guys! Killing boredom here. So, here is a reason why i do a thing that I do and hate a thing that I hate. Which is boredom. And crying, but nevermind that for now.
I fucking hate boredom.
A friend of mine has asked me why I stay up so late. It's because falling asleep is boring. And for me, boredom is associated with silence. Which is also why I talk a lot. Anyways, when I'm bored my mind does things to entertain me. Which sometimes works, but that's a bad thing. My mind goes deep into deep shit. I will literally be eating dinner at family's and suddenly need to cry because I just thought about something deep and slightly depressing.
Honestly, is this normal?
Oh! Another thing I do that I hate that I do is stare into mirrors.
I honestly hate my appearance, I have acne and a really chubby face and ugh, but I will stare at a mirror for hours trying to figure out why I look so...... Wrong? When I see myself I don't see something that feels normal, I guess? I feel like a soul trapped in the wrong body. Not a boy in a girls body or anything like that. Honestly I don't feel comfortable with the terms boy or girl describing me anyways. It just feels wrong. So I'll stare at myself trying to pick out why I feel like that.
WELP. Honestly this shit belongs in my other book. Whoops!😅 Ta ta for now mah bubbles!
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My Odd Mind
RandomSoooooooooooo. This is my first book/fanfic/wwhatever(heh heh, I'm a Homestuck fan)this is. This is basically whatever the heck my odd mind comes up with written on paper , or screen I guess, since this is digital and a bunch of my fandoms and memes...
