Song (1233)
"It's been a year, Emperor." His concubine reminded him. "Aren't you still going to her grave?"
Lizong closed his eyes. "I can't..."
Today is his first love's first death anniversary yet he can't face her even though she was already gone. Anhye would be his first love, and that love will never fade. Her death brought him to be depressed; he can't breathe, he can't eat, he can't sleep. At the time, he considered killing himself.
"No, it's not that you can't. You just don't want to."
He opened his eyes and looked at Jia. "I really love her..."
Consort Jia smiled at him, she reached the hands of the emperor. "I hope in another life, you two won't suffer like this."
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Goryeo (1233)
The Emperor of Song Dynasty, Lizong casually crouched into the ground of the other country. He smiled, for the first time again.
"Hey, how are you?" he was supposed to ask naturally like he used to do, but his voice cracked. "I'm s-sorry..."
His tears begun to fall. "I'm sorry I'm late."
Lizong wiped his tears but it never stop.
"I'm now Emperor Lizong, Queen Anhye." He said between his sobs and touching the grave of his first love. "I could imagine you nagging at me since I can't be a good emperor to his subjects. I'm really sorry..."
Someone suddenly patted him on the back, he turned back and saw one of the brother of Anhye, Wonjeong. "Wonjeong-ah!" he stood up and hugged him. It's been a lot years since he saw this guy.
Wonjeong immediately pushed him away. "Don't hug me, you thug."
Lizong hissed and wiped his tears. "Me? Thug? Look, I'm now an emperor!"
Wonjeong also hissed. "Thug will always be a thug."
They both chuckled but after a few moments the two suddenly became quiet.
"Hmm... so, how's everybody?" Lizong asked.
"We're all fine. Our parents had been visiting her everyday so I volunteered instead to visit her since they're getting older, I don't want them to get tired."
Lizong chuckled. "Wow, you sounds really matured now."
"How about you? Why did you took so long? Anhye had been waiting for you."
"Yeah, it took so long for me to move on. I mean still now I can't move on..."
"Anhye would be happy to see Guicheng moving on." Wonjeong said, winking at him as he uttered its first name, Guicheng.
The emperor looked at the grave of his first love again then he whispered, "I may be Emperor Lizong or Zhao Yun, but still, I want to be Guicheng who loves you unconditionally..."
This time, he should let her go...though he can't forget her, he should try at least.
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Los Angeles, California (2032, November)
15 years later, Mark reside alone in L.A to work on a decent company. A years ago his band goes in disbandment so he decided to work in America. His members started to live with their own life; BamBam started many business; Jackson became a comedian in China and also became a fencing teacher; Jaebeom became an actor; Youngjae are now happily married with his long-time non-celebrity girlfriend, and Yugyeom is currently dating an actress. Well, the maknae is now thirty-five years old.
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The Clandestine (디 클랜데스틴)
Fiction HistoriqueA clandestine love affair of Guicheng (later became the Emperor Lizong) and Queen Anhye (King Gojong of Goryeo's consort). MARKRENE FAN FICTION. Highest ranking: #3 in gotvelvet