Submerged

4

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// I do recommend playing the song ''All Of Me'' by John Legend on repeat while reading this chapter today! //

''I promise sir, this will not happen again!'' I plead, looking over at the mess they've made. I was suppose to watch over my small siblings, but when I left for a drink and came back to check on them, they went missing, with blood everywhere on the floors. It was heartbreaking, and I would do anything just to find them again. I never wanted to disappoint my father, yet here I am. 

He glances at me with pained eyes, and looked like he knew what to do next. ''That's what you said yesterday when your mother went missing.'' He whispers with tears falling down his cheek. He carefully placed his cape on his throne and turned his head so that only his side is facing me. ''It seems as if everyone you had a hatred for, went missing.'' Father scowls bitterly. 

''T-That's not true!'' I shake my head frantically. I loved my mother, she was gentle, and she sang her lana del ray songs to me before bed every night. She was caring, and full hearted and knew her way to mine. ''Yes, it is. You were selfish, and needed the castle to yourself. YOU hid them somewhere, or worst, killed them!'' He scoffs, pulling out his handkerchief and a small blade out. 

''Father, you know I would never do that. So- father, what are you doing?'' I gasp, as he turns to face me with deadly eyes. ''YOU peasant, call me by SIR! And me? I'm doing exactly what you did the your mother and brothers.'' He evilly snickers, and slowly heads towards me. I back up, and  my limbs collide with the wall forcefully. A grunt comes out of my mouth, and my father rolls his eyes. 

''Stay in one place, you peasant. I need to get my job done.'' He demands. A scream escapes my lips as he comes crashing into me. 

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''Oh mother of nature..'' I yell as sweat ripples down my forehead. My mother was sitting on the bed, next to me with a pale face. ''Darling! Thank goodness you're awake.'' She beams and wraps her arms around my shoulders. I gawk at her, and manage to hug her back affectionately. ''Mother.. you're alive!'' I cry, with tears of joy. My mother frowns and pets me. ''Well, of course I am. I'm surprised that you're still breathing oxygen.'' She smiles sadly.

I nod in confusion and stare out the window outside. The view from my room was beautiful and stunning. The yellow and green leaves of the trees flew across my window, and blended with the spring flowers on the floor. I immediately wished that it was summer already, so I was allowed out in the wild to admire the beauties of nature. My allergies got worst as spring came to a stop and that's possibly why I was asleep most of the month, which tricked my mom into thinking that my death has gone by.

But everything I've wanted to do outside can't happen. I'm allergic to the sun, and the beautiful and calming flowers of earth. It was sickening, but if I took a step out of my home, I would collapse into bits of butterflies that were molding. I've been stuck inside the huge castle of my princess dreams, for 21 years now. It's really sad, and I can't do anything about it. I really wish I could roam free in the grass one day. It would be a dream come true, but in this fairytale, dreams don't come true like that. 

''Mom, when will I ever get better?'' I frown, and watch the blue jays soar across the sky. She looks at me in surprise, with her back bent over to pick up my book. ''I'm not sure my dear. I'm not even 100% sure you'll get better at all.'' Mother shakes her head in disappointment, and picks up my book. It isn't easy being a young adult who has never experienced the outdoors before. You get teased for it, and you can't feel like you're like everyone else. ''Tsk, thanks mom. I feel much better now.'' I scowl and throw my arms around my pillow. 

''I didn't mean to hurt your gentle feelings. Anyways, I'm going to help the cook start lunch. Stay here and read your book. DO NOT leave your room, we don't want you catching a cold now do we?'' She smiles and quietly closes the door. I scream into my pillow and tiredly look back outside. I'm not a suicidal person, but I do think of it once in awhile. I'm sure there's much more people in the world who are even more close to doing it, but I really want to. I know this is taking sadness into a whole different level, but I really want to experience the outdoors once in my life. Even if it means ending mine. 

I decided after a few minutes that I would go on a small walk around the castle, even though mother told me to stay put. I need fresh air, and being in a cramped up room isn't going to help me much more. My eyes dart towards the cream sweater on my chair, and I pull it on and tuck my hair into a small bun so my hair doesn't get into my face. I manage to sneak pass my father's room, as well as my pet's. 

My footsteps quietly dash around the halls, and I head straight to the library. Reading sounds amazing right now. I go pass the librarian who stares at me with confusion. Long rows of books stood besides each other in front of me. I loved it. I picked out one of my favorite books: how to kill a mocking bird. My eyes wander across the brown pages, as I watch the time pass by. 1 hour, 2 hours, 3. 

I start to think that I should be heading back now, it's not good to be hanging around the castle without mother watching me. The book gets placed back on the shelf and I skip out of the library. The librarian gives me a peck on the cheek before I leave. ''Be safe.'' She whispers into my ear quietly. I nod and head down the hall, towards my room. The door was wide open, and there seemed to be a person standing in there. 

A scream echo out of it, and I recognize the voice almost immediately. My mother. 

She's here in the room, realizing that I was not there like she demanded I would. And she's not happy about it. 

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Yes, I'm basically giving you guys another chapter at 7 PM. I'm very proud of myself right now, you literally have no idea. And happy late new years! I totally forgot to say that awhile ago. I hope 2018 is just as amazing as 2017 was, even though it wasn't my year. What are your new years resolutions? Mine is to start reading more often, and I want to be able to get an actual life because I literally don't have a life yet. I need to get one soon by doing productive stuff, rather then just playing around online now haha. 

I'm going to start writing the next chapter now! Sorry about the sad twists in this chapter, I just felt like I needed something sad to write this chap. See you in the next chapter, I hope you enjoyed this one. Be safe! 

Sloppy corgi kisses, 

Angelina