T-Shirt Girl (COMPLETED)

TSG 13 - Breathe Again

"All I have, all I need, he's the air I would kill to breathe. Holds my love in his hands, still I'm searching for something. Out of breath, I am left hoping someday I'll breathe again." --Breathe Again, Sara Bareilles

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He reached out to touch her hair. Nakatalikod ito sa kanya, tulog na tulog. Hindi pa rin maayos ang pakiramdam niya but he's alright. Mas maayos kesa kanina. Although, aminado siyang nakagawa na naman siya ng pagkakamali.

Siguro nga ay tama si Jae. Siguro nga ay user sya. He's using her to move on from Jazz. He's passing onto her the burden of someone else's heartache. His.

Something could have happened. Muntikan na. And if it did happen, mas lalo lamang itong mahihirapan sa kanya. Earlier, he kissed her. And that kiss led to another hanggang sa makarating sila sa kwarto nito. Kahit anong tanggi nito, alam niyang tatanggapin nito lahat. That's Jae.

She will deny everything but will accept them as well.

And something could have happened. But it didn't. Because when he looked at her, all he could see is Jazz. And he became so conflicted. He felt love and anger, resentment, excitement, joy, sadness... everything just turned into a one big mesh. He knew he had to stop. He had to stop before he could hurt Jae any further.

"Why did you stop?" tanong nito sa kanya kanina. Mugto pa rin ang mata nito but thankfully, she stopped crying already. Her hands were on his chest, ready to push him away, which she didn't.

"Sorry, Jae," came his reply.

Kita niya kung paano ito naging malungkot ulit. She was sad not because something did not happen. She was sad because she felt rejected again.

"Why do you keep on rejecting me, Toby?"

"Jae..." He felt so helpless. Nagsimula na naman itong umiyak. Hindi ba ito napapagod sa kaiiyak? "Tama na o. Tahan na..."

Pinahid niya ang mga luha nito. Pinalis naman nito ang kamay nya saka ito tumalikod.

"Jae..."

"I-I know you feel guilty. Tatalikod na lang ako para hindi mo ako makitang umiiyak."

Niyakap niya ito, hoping that somehow, his hug would give her comfort. He hopes that it could somehow console her.

"Sorry kung palagi kitang pinapaiyak."

"Okay lang. Mauubos din ang luha ko."

He kissed the top of her head. "Don't say that."

Suminghot-singhot ito. "Pero bakit nga?"

"Bakit?"

"May ginawa na naman ba akong ikna-turn off mo?"

He sighed. "Wala. Siguro hindi pa lang right time."

"You're already using me anyway. Sana nilubos mo na."

"I'm not using you."

"Kahit anong tanggi mo, Toby, we both know what's true. And maybe you don't see things the way I do but that doesn't make me wrong."

"It doesn't make you right, either."

She fell silent after that. Tanging pagsinghot na lang nito ang narinig niya. And then moments later, napansin niyang tulog na ito.

It was still raining outside and he was rather drowsy, so natulog na rin sya. He couldn't leave anyway.

Jae could feel him moving behind her. She remained still, kunwari ay tulog pa rin sya. In a way, she was kind of thankful that he stopped. Alam niyang pagsisisihan lamang nilang dalawa kung may mangyari man sa kanila.