The pretty boy with funny eyes || joshler

Heartbeat.

TRIGGER WARNING: panic attack, if you want to skip then ill tell you when its over 

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Tyler's eyes began to open as he started rubbing them with the palms of his hands. He looked at his surroundings, panic flooded through him on where the fuck he was, but he quickly remembered the previous night's evens.

"God, how the hell is any of this actually real. Maybe I'm still dreaming...oh my god Tyler stop being so fucking Meta."

He sat up in his bed, surprisingly energized. Usually he needs Brendon to even wake u- "OH MY FUCK. BRENDON, I totally forgot about him last night. Shitshitshit." Tyler changed into a big T-shirt and joggers he found in the dresser across the room.

He stepped in front of the door and it slid open, Tyler stepped out and walked, more like ran, to the exit of the living quarters. He looked around frantically for Brendon. "Josh said something about the Hollows, where are they??" he said to himself.

Tyler started to hyperventilate slightly , he couldn't find Brendon. His eyes where scanning everywhere hoping to catch just a glimpse of his best friend. But he couldn't find him. Tyler began to run around the building, not knowing where he was, but he counldn't care less. "BRENDON! oh dear god, BRENDON!" Tyler shouted his, his head was spinning with worry. He was about to pass out until Josh found him. 

"Ty-Tyler? what is wrong? are you okay? what happened?" josh held him by his shoulders looking into his eyes with a furrowed brow of worry. tyler's eyes were darting all around the room, he couldn't really hear what josh was asking him, but eventually it registered. and he responded through quick breaths. 

"b-brendon, i can't -i can't - can't find him."

As soon as josh knew what was the matter, he started to walk them to were Brendon is, almost needing to carry Tyler on account that his legs were going numb. "tyler, he is okay. He is in the Hollows, we are going to see him right now. Everything is okay, breath." They made it to the  entrance of the Hollows, and made it to the front hallway. Tyler looked to his left and saw the person he was searching for. A wave of relief and pure happiness washed over him when he finally found him. 

When Brendon saw tyler he instantly got up and ran to him. He dropped on his knees and tyler's legs gave out as well. They were face to face, and tyler finally uttered out "couldn't f-find you." followed by an out of breath chuckle. "Im here tyler, don't worry. I'm here." and brought him into a tight hug, both of them holding each other . The brunette's breath slowly but surely evened out again. 

Brendon got up, but not before he asked one more time if tyler was going to be okay, and his eyes were beaming at josh. He got in josh's face and boy oh boy was he pissed "are you fucking kidding me? you didn't watch over him? i had to find him crying in the middle of a panic attack?!" Brendon searched joshes face for a response, but found nothing. Usually josh would put up a fight and defend himself, but he couldn't find the strength. All he could focus on was tyler, how he count help him, how his face looked so terrified. (an: doNT) 

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"you're right." josh said helplessly. "I'm sorry..." A wave of shock washed over brendon's face at how compliant he was being. He was taken back and almost felt bad for yelling at him. 

tyler's voice caught the attention of the 2 boys: "josh, you don't have to feel bad. Im fine now." tyler said with a puffy eyed smile. His smile was genuine, he was so over come by happiness that he found his best friend, a steady constant in this hurricane of chaos. His tears turned from ones of panic to joy. But josh's face was still painted with shock and shame. tyler noticed and with one weak motion, got up and rapped his hands around the older boy. His body was flooded with that shock and energy again, but to be perfectly honest, he really couldn't care less. josh was caught of guard and initially tried to pull tyler off him because he knew what his skin did to him, but the brunet didn't budge and josh melted into him.

"im so sorry, tyler." josh whispered, wiping a tear from tylers face.

"its o-okay."

the two let go of each other, tyler was a little out of breath from being in contact with josh for so long. "gotta get used to that i guess." he said with a chuckle.

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"I'm still really sorry.." josh said for the hundred time that night as he walked tyler back to his room. 

"josh, i  already told you, its okay. its not your fault, please stop apologizing." 

tyler made sure josh looked him in the eyes when he said this, he wanted to get it through to the boy that he should not feel guilty. the brunette was waiting for an answer or.. anything really from josh, but he didn't respond. The redheaded boy just stared at tyler as if he was in a trance, looking at every detail on his face, especially his eyes. those big beautiful light brown eyes full of joy and wonder, those eyes that made his tough guy persona chipped at every time he looked into them, those eyes that made everything else around him disappear in to oblivion.

"josh?" tyler responded with a quirked brow. 

Josh now realized he had not answer his question. wait, was it a question? fuck. shit shit say something dun.

"uh- yes?" he said feeling his cheeks turn red and looking around the room.

"i just wanted you to not apologize." tyler said with a giggle, it was funny to see josh like this, he's always so...dominant. it was fun seeing him be the flustered one for a chance. 

"right, um yeah-ha" josh returned clearing his throat. "i  gotta um go now, gotta get -ha sleep." he said as he slowly walked backwards down the hallway to the exit, knocking over a plant as he did so, yeah smooth move dun. tyler just giggled on, covering his blushing face with the ends of his sleeves. 

the older boy finally recomposed himself when he got to the door. 

"good night, tyler." he said, his flirty attitude returning.

"good night, joshua."

tyler finally got into his room and curled into the soft sheets, another grin creeping over him as his last thoughts were about josh, and quietly whispered to himself

"i 

think 

I'm falling...

asleep." 

and with that he was out like a light.

okay... i know i say this every time... but HOLY FUUUuUuuck i was gone a long ass time. I'm so frickin sorry, my life has been crazy. also this thing said it had been read even though i didn't publish it, so sorry again that it is so short but I'm going to write another chapter by  tomorrow, i swear. ok, love you ~ty