I Slept With My Stepbrother

Chapter 9

First of all I want to say thank you guys so much for the support I have been getting recently honestly it has been amazing to see people I have never even met leaving comments and messaging me its just MIND BLOWING xoxo 

(BTW INFINITY IS A GOOD SONG FOR THIS CHAPTER)

Ziya's POV

"So what do you want to do?" Jordan asks as he is opening the front door to our home, I exhale as I walk in as if this was somewhere new to me rather then my house.  Am I nervous to be around him? It's not like we haven't been living together for the last few months. Mind you I guess you could say things are a little bit different to how they were a few weeks ago. "Can we just cuddle and watch movies again."

"Sure, are you going to go change?" I nod in response, let's be honest a denim skirt is not the most comfortable of chill clothes. "Can you grab me something to change into as well, I will grab us some drinks."

We go to the den after placing two glasses on the table, he grabs the blanket that was on the sofa and drapes it over the two of us. As he does so I get comfortable by leaning my head on his chest. We put on this film, can't even tell you the name, seems to be some kind of thriller or action type movie. It's an okay film but I couldn't really focus on it.

 Why did Jordan care so much about THE NEW TEACHER? He just started and I am sure that he wouldn't risk his job over a teenage girl. Wait! Crap I was meant to see him for lunch study! I have made such a bad impression, should I email him? (All teachers at my school have a school email that students can use to ask for help ect.) Yeah maybe I will do that then he can send me some extra work to do. Oh my gosh that means I have also skipped science and history class! Ziya you idiot, why would you ditch class for some guy? "You know all I'm trying to do is protect you." But why? Whats the point in taking interest in the little frigid girl? "Because I see something in you, I don't know what it is yet but it is perplexing and enticing and I can't wait to understand it more. I find it crazy but an honour that I am your first everything, it makes every moment with you so beautiful and fresh. I mean I don't understand how there wasn't at least two guys before me. However, it makes me so happy there wasn't, at least then you haven't been taking advantage of and, even better no psycho ex's. I, on the other hand, have wasted it all on dumb one night stands and self-centred girls who were only in it for the ability to say they did it with me." 

"You wasn't meant to hear that, I was meant to think it not say it" I have never been more grateful for not being able to see his face at this moment. "I know you but, I know you are the sort of person to over think crap, so just wanted to remind you that I am very much into you."

" I think I-"  I begin to say but have no idea how to phrase what I wanted to say.  He kisses my head to reassure me that I can be open up to him, I look up to see his beautiful eyes staring back at me. "I think you're going to break my heart, Jordan Davis." He seemed surprised at my honest response to his kind words, but let's be honest he is a complete player, what all of a sudden I am meant to believe he will throw it all away for his step-sister? Yeah no, he isn't.  "And if I do, I will be the one to put it together again." 

"And if everyone finds out that there is something between us. And then what? When our parents find out? Or when the girls at school know! When you go to college and I am still here? Or-" He cuts me off by dragging me onto his lap so that both my legs are wrapped around him. "Ziya, I am pretty sure the guys know and they don't care. The girls at school are irrelevant because soon when you leave school they will just become a memory and memories fade but I will still be thinking about you every day. College, well that is something we will have to think about but you're in like two senior classes as it is, I am sure you will be able to graduate early! We can do this Zi, or is it you don't want this?" 

It just seems like there is nothing that shows this will work, but I can't tell him that, he will hate me. But it is understandable that I am having these doubts, we are family through marriage, he is a player and a year above me.  Why does this have to be so difficult? "I am just scared, this all so much in the space of a few days!" He can sense I am getting upset, my voice cracked towards the end of my sentence. "It's been a few days, yeah, but we have done the 'get to know me' stage, Ziya we have been in each other's lives for the last nine months. Maybe it's not the most conventional way of doing things but its still nine months of us living together." I guess I didn't see it that way, "Please Ziya just stop worrying about everything and everyone and just enjoy being with someone."