I Slept With My Stepbrother

Chapter 12

PLEASE READ A/N AT THE BOTTOM IT EXPLAINS A LOT!

Previously:

"Now what is a sexy girl like you doing at a sleezy house party, all alone?" The raspy voice coming from behind is instantly familiar to my ears. "Oh I live here with the guy I'm seeing. But uh I can't seem to find him." I love playing along with his little games just keeps it interesting. Turning my body to face him "Want to keep me company till he comes back?" I say with the best innocent look I could ever create in my life!

"Okay that's it upstairs now!"

This should be fun...

"Morning baby, how'd you sleep?" I hear as a hand starts playing with my curls that are resting on Jordan's bare chest, my hand drawing nonsense partners over his body. "Perfectly," I sigh with my eyes transfixed on the movement of my fingertips, "So perfectly that I don't want to leave this bed. Must we get up?" Please say no, please say we can spend the entire day cuddling! Woah all me and Jord do is cuddle... I'm not complaining!

"As great is that sounds, our parents come home in just three more days and I reckon they will guess we have had a party if we just stayed in bed." I cringe at the phrasing of 'our parents', was Jamie right are we disgusting? Will Mum disown me for what I have done, I could be homeless in a week! "Please don't remind me." I try to hide my disgust but acting has never been my strong point, "What if they don't accept us?" I am now sitting up trying to make sense of the whirlwind of fears and uncertainty in my mind. The stress is rising inside Jordan I can see it is his face, just as bad at acting as me. Rubbing his face repeatedly, avoiding eye contact and just ignoring my question, he doesn't know the answer does he? "Well?" I push, needing to hear him tell me it's okay.

But he gets up. "Jordan?" No response. "Jordan!" Nothing. "Please Jordan." My voice cracks but I can no longer see him. As I hear the turning on of the shower, a single tear runs down my face. Maybe I just made him realise, what happens when everyone at school finds out? He really could loose his dad, the only constant thing that has been in his life because of me, because of how he feels towards me!

Because of how we feel about each other.

I am so stupid. How could he do this to me? Make me bring my guard down, show how I feel, make me feel cared for and wanted in a way no family or friend could. How could he make me feel so special in such a short amount of time? He comes out of the shower, yet doesn't come back to me. He holds his head low and walks to his room. Once he closes the door the room is now silent and I am left with the questions and nobody to ask.

The room starts to blur as my tears begin to flood my eyes, sadness turning into anger. I hate him. One thing crashes, then I throw another and before I know it, I only see red, I can feel my body shaking as I break picture after picture, breaking everything in sight! His voice echoing in my mind; the sweet words he spoke to me last night. "Your my beautiful angel." Pushing me onto the bed as I giggle at his cuteness, lie. "Perfect, oh so fucking perfect, and all mine!" He spoke as he kissed down my thigh, lie. "My everything." he brought his lips back up to mine but it was all lies, wasn't it?

"I'm going to get some groceries." Just standing there gazing at the monstrous mess I had created, seems as if he is looking just above me. The technique is used normally by those scared of public speaks, I would be scared of me too if I had walked in on that I guess. As he begins to turn his body away, "I thought we were going to clean the house today." Ironic as hell me saying we should clean while my room now is the aftermath of a tornado. "We have three days." Can't help but roll my eyes, again with the bloody reminder. I'm not letting him act like this never happened, he has reached the bottom of the steps I have all but about five seconds to try and get some kind of emotional response out of him!

Running to the top of the stairs, I can see him grabbing his keys I have to say something! "You said I was special!" He stops in his tracks. "You said you didn't care what others thought because we had each other." Still no movement. "You sa-"

"I know what I fucking said alright!" Head falling backwards he slowly turns to face me, "I know what I said and I meant it all, but my dad is the only family I have left, I can't loose that. Please do not make me have to actually choose between the two of you, babe please. I am going to the shop then I guess we can try to talk when we get back." I guess its a start. "While I am gone that room needs to get fucking sorted, your mom will loose her shit if she sees that." Feel like a minor getting told off; but I guess he is right it was super immature and stupid for me to wreck my room.

I have to let him go, to think obviously not permanently. God I hope it isn't permanently however, my parents showed me you can't force someone to stay and I certainly don't want to break a family apart. But maybe it wont come to that, why do we have to be so cynical they may be fine with it, again I know ironic since I am defiantly the worrier in this 'not quite relationship' thing!

Yeah that I exactly what I will say later, we could be a little flirty in front of the two, gage their reactions, slowly amp it up and in about a month they will probably approach us and maybe even suggest the idea that we should be together... I hope anyway.

A/N: I know it has been like 7 months since I last updated, I just want to say the support has been amazing from everyone! I have had a super crazy couple of months if I am honest! Went to Reading Festival again (if you live in the USA its like a muddier British Coachella filled with booze, rain and chanting with strangers!) started bloody university! I go to a uni near a beach which is just incredible, loads of boy drama of course and I also found out I'm dyslexic which kinda made me sit and be like wow my book is probably a massive pile of dog shit which is why I didn't want to upload because, I know I am not very good at the moment but I am undergoing some support which might help I guess!

BTW I am supper approachable so feel free to message me about anything really, don't really have a social life so will probably respond quite quick.

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MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!