I Slept With My Stepbrother

Chapter 10

a/n Not going to bore you guys with all my problems but thanks for waiting patiently. Also a massive thank you to getting my book to over 20k reads! Honestly can't believe that not even 10 chapters in already at 10k

Previously in I Slept With My Stepbrother; 

It just seems like there is nothing that shows this will work, but I can't tell him that, he will hate me. But it is understandable that I am having these doubts, we are family through marriage, he is a player and a year above me. Why does this have to be so difficult? "I am just scared, this all so much in the space of a few days!" He can sense I am getting upset, my voice cracked towards the end of my sentence. "It's been a few days, yeah, but we have done the 'get to know me' stage, Ziya we have been in each other's lives for the last nine months. Maybe it's not the most conventional way of doing things but its still nine months of us living together." I guess I didn't see it that way, "Please Ziya just stop worrying about everything and everyone and just enjoy being with someone."

Ziya's P.O.V

"Baby how long till our parents come home?" We are currently in the kitchen preparing some snacks for a house party Jordan wants to throw. Because our school holiday ended on today and it was already Thursday, he believes it will be a great turn out, I think it will be a quiet night. If I'm honest I hope its a quiet one, cleaning up after immature teens does not sound like fun. "They come home in four days, oh and Meridith is coming round so I can help her get ready." I say putting the chips in a bowl, Jordan comes up behind me and sweeps his arms around my waist before speaking, "Well do we have time for some fun first?" He leans down kissing my neck, tilting my head to give him more room as he begins to bite and suck. "Jordan...baby...please." I moan his name not even caring about the visible marks he is making on my skin. 

Knocking at the fucking door! Meridith picked the worst time to knock. "Ignore it, princess, I need you to fix something for me." I move my arm behind me a palm his trousers to see how hard he was, and as predicted rock fucking solid. "Ziya come on open the door!" 

Removing myself from Jordans hold rush to the sofa and grabbing one the blankets, to wrap around my neck before opening the door. "Sorry babe, was up in my room and Jordans too lazy to get the door apparently!" I shout the last bit to make sure he hears. "Oi I heard that!" Jordan calls as I run up the stairs, aw bless him he couldn't tell that I was clearly being sarcastic.

Surprisingly when I arrive an outfit is already laid out for me! Black denim booty shorts with a black crop top and an army jacket paired with black converses.  It's definitely riskier then I was planning, however, it's my house so if I feel uncomfortable I can just go change! But first Mer is my first priority. "So, what is with the blanket?" she asks as soon as we sit on the bed. Oh fuck, I don't even know what to say, it's not even fucking cold. "Well, you know just comfort." 

"Bullshit tell me the truth bitch!" She laughs throwing a pillow at me, successfully I manage to grab the pillow however, the blanket dropped instead! The look of shock was apparent on her face, I have no choice but to explain. "Okay, chill! ImayormaynotbeseeingJordan." I rush out while I go to sit beside her.  "Well actually I don't know what we are doing, we haven't been on a date but we mess around I guess. And he says he has feelings for me and I feel for him but he wants to keep it a secret." So many things swirling around my mind,  "Wait! Am I just a glorified hoe?" I can feel myself start to panic as the tears start to fill my eyes. Am I just an object? I mean he says he cares but should I be kept a secret if that's the case?

Mer brings me in for a cuddle after screaming for Jords to come upstairs. "Bab-I mean Zi, what's up." Jordan comes and crouches next to us trying to act like he wasn't about to call me babe. "Relax I know what is going on, just sort things out with her so we can get ready for tonight!"  I can visibly see Jords relax at Meredith's words. "I'm giving you three minutes. After that, she is all mine and we are going to kill these bitches with our looks." I can't help but laugh at how ridiculous Meridith is being, she has grown a lot as a person in the last six months after the crap with her foster dad I could never be more proud of my best friend. "I love you!" I screamed as she walked out, silently hoping she would stay as my backbone. 

"Why were you crying" He comes up next to me throwing his arm around my shoulder. Telling him how I feel will just scream to him that I haven't got trust or faith in his words!  "I know you said that what we have is real but just feel like I'm just a toy, please don't be angry at me,  I just ugh I don't know what I feel! I just feel something for you and I don't want it to get ruined."

 I sense the frustration in the room, his arm no longer around my shoulders but now both arms are resting on his knees while he fumbles with his hands, my nerves are going crazy right now! Why isn't he saying anything? "Jordan baby please say something." I don't want to cry but I fear I may. "What am I meant to say!?" he shouts causing me to flinch out of shock, "I literally just fucking told you how crazy I am about you and you still don't fucking believe me for fuck sake. How do you think I feel that the girl I am into doesn't believe me when I tell her how I feel?" 

"I didn't want you to get mad it's just with it being a secret and us not having a label I just don't know what we are or if we are on the same level of feels!"  Walking over to my makeup station I begin to get ready for the night ahead, not wanting this to ruin my first house party at my house. In the reflection of the mirror I see Jords get up and walk behind me, "Okay well, we are exclusive but not public. We don't say to everyone that we are together because it has on been a few days however, we turn down people who try it on. Including that fucking arsehole of a math teacher." Aside from rolling my eyes to his final part, I feel more secure about this. "Now fucking kiss me, princess." His head begins to lean down, I feel like he is moving slower than usual! 

"Time is up! Leave now or lose your dick!"  MOMENT RUINED!