Crying out again
No one knows how to find you
You're lost in darkness
"Blaine," Kurt scoffed, "what are you doing back?" Blaine winced internally at Kurt's one of voice, but realized he deserved everything coming to him. He took a deeep breath and grabbed the razor out of Kurt's hand.
"I owe you a huge apology! I can't believe I said that! I was so stupid and no one even holds a candle to you! I was angry and I didn't have a true insult and I regret everything I've done or said..." Blaine started to trail of and went into a full-blown panic attack. Kurt knew what to do to stop it he's had panic attacks before and the doctor told his dad the simplest way to stop it was to get him to breath into a paper bag or breathe through his nose. He didn't have a paper bag and putting his hand up to Blaine's mouth could be detrimental. Kurt didn't want to lead Blaine on and Kurt didn't want to get hurt, but now wasn't the time to think about the consequences, he'll deal with that later. Kurt crashed his lips into Blaine's. Blaine took a deep breath through his nose and calmed down. Kurt hastily pulled away and ran downstairs to turn off his music.
Goodbye, Miss Jackson, He thoght as he shut off Brendon Urie's voice. He ran back upstairs and found Blaine sitting on the floor where Kurt had left him. He sat next Blaine and looked at his shocked expression and let out a short chuckle. Blaine looked at Kurt and finally spoke.
"S-s-so, why'd you do that?" He sounded scared.
"It's an easy way to stop a panic attack. Panic attacks are kind of serious and it was either wait for an ambulance, get a paper bag, then get you to use the bag, comfort you, and---the list is endless. Kissing you was just...easiest." Kurt looked at Blaine pointedly. Blaine let out a soft, disappointed sigh.
I love Blaine and I want to be with him, and I know he thinks the exact same thing. I just don't want to get hurt again and if we were to get back together nothing would be the same. He'd know about the depression I went through and he'd know that it was because he left. I'm not the boy he fell in love with. The boy he fell in love with thought cutting was cry for attention, dark colors were only okay for funerals, and punk rock and heavy metal were the worst things on the planet. I love him and I will never stop loving him, but what if he stops loving me?
At that moment Kurt's thoughts were cut short by Blaine's hand on is wrist, examining the scars.
"All this was because I left," he asked. Kurt squeezed his eyes shut and nodded his head vigorously as tears somehow managed to find their way out of his hermetically sealed eyes sockets. Blaine leaned in to Kurt and connected their lips. Kurt's eyes shot open in surprise, but after a few milliseconds he started kissing back.
"Then, I'll never leave again," Blaine whispered breaking the connection. Kurt looked at him in confusion making Blaine snicker.
"What do you mean," Kurt asked a bit skeptically.
"I mean, I'll move to Lima. I, nor my parents, like Colmbus that much, plus my dad finally warmed up to me being gay so we won't have to hide our relationship at my house like we had to before." Kurt tilted his head at the slightly irrelevant comment, I mean, they never hid their relationship at Blaine's house. Kurt shrugged and then spoke
"Blaine, I really love you, but what if your parents don't move to Lima," Kurt asked. "I would just get my hopes up and they would be shattered. Like when you said you didn't get a puppy." Blaine smiled at the memory of Kurt's cyber-excitement.
"They'll come back. I know they will." Blaine said assuringly. "Can you and I just...be boyfriends again? We won't be too much different if that's what you're worried about." Kurt looked at him with a raised eyebrow.
"What do you mean, and wow, you're thoughts are just everywhere," he said as he pulled himself off the floor. Blaine did the same and handed Kurt his phone, which was in his music. Kurt looked through it, he had a smile on his face growing larger and larger.
"Pierce the Veil, Papa Roach, Linkin Park, Panic! at the Disco, You Me at Six, Fall Out Boy, All Time Low! When were you planning on telling me about this, Blaine Devon Anderson?!"
Blaine let out a low chuckle as Kurt handed him back his phone.
"You never answered me," Blaine pushed.
"Okay, okay, fine! One condition: you can never leave me again!"
"Of course!"
A/N PLEASE READ---------WOOOOO HAPPINESS!!!!!!! Sorry if this doesn't meet up to everybody's expectations but I really thought that this would be a good way to go out....for now...oh yeah be expecting a plot twist love and hugs to you gumdrops
QUOTE OF THE DAY!!!!!!!!!
“Things change. And friends leave. Life doesn't stop for anybody.” ― Stephen Chbosky
