Decisions

Chapter 8

I wake up and rush to the bathroom throwing up all of last nights dinner. 

"Bethany?" Nash yells from his room. 

"I'm okay" I yell back "I must have ate something bad last night". I flush the toilet and splash water on to my face while washing my hands. I haven't been sick in so long. Frankly I can't remember the last time I threw up. Anyway I felt better now even though my head still pounded. I had a headache all night. I go back to my room and take a Panadol out of my bag. I put a jumper over my pyjama top and walk down stairs to make some breakfast. Skylynn will be home soon. I walk down stairs to see Nash and an extra bowl of cereal. "I made you breakfast?" I look at the bowl and I hear my stomach and I'm instantly turned off. "I might have some later. I'm not feeling too well. I think it must have been the Chinese last night."

"Oh thats odd I feel fine. We ate the same stuff didn't we? Anyway if you need anything top cupboard is all medication." 

"Thanks" I say making a mental note. I sit down in the chair opposite Nash. 

"Are you sure you're okay. I mean I don't mind taking you to the doctors. You look really pale."

"I mean I'm not normally like this. Maybe it's just a 24 hour thing. Anyway could you drive with one arm?"

"I would be fine. My cars automatic after all. Plus you broke my left arm not my right" He says with a smile.

"Sorry about that again." Suddenly I feel my stomach roll and run to the bathroom. I clench the toilet seat and begin to lose anything that was left in my stomach. Nash walks in and holds my hair back. Once my stomach settles I flush the toilet and sit on the tiled floor. Nash fills up a cup from the bathroom sink and hands it to me. "I'm really never like this" I say beginning to sip the water. Nash smirks "Hope its not morning sickness" he sits on the tiles with me. Morning sickness. Morning sickness. My heart drops at the words. You only get morning sickness when you are pregnant. I think back to Aaron. That night. The champaign. I feel my head spinning. Nash looks at me. "Bethany I was only joking. Are you okay?" I pull out a smile "Yeah, I'm sorry. Just a little out of it" I shrug "Do you mind if I go pick up some medication. I was meant to pick up my prescription yesterday. It might be why I'm not feeling well."

"I could take you?"

"No its alright. You need to stay incase Skylynn comes home. Can I borrow your car?" 

"Yeah of course. See you soon."

I quickly go into my room and change into sweat pants. I look in the mirror and notice how pale I have become. I put a beanie on to try cover my hair and look less disheveled. I walk down stairs grab Nash's keys and hop into the car. 

What will I do if I am pregnant? I mean I know I'm young but at least it would be Aarons. We were always going to get married and its not like he can't support us. We could get married early, buy a house, I could do online school and watch the baby while he is at college. I did always want to be a mum. I guess it is just happening sooner than expected. But the truth is the chance of me being pregnant is so low. It was my first time and I know we didn't use protection but my period had just finished, so again it was so unlikely for me to conceive. I park the car and walk into the pharmacy. I pick up the small pink box and walk to the counter. I feel like people are staring at me. The pharmacist hands me back the bag and I feel so shameful leaving the store. Its like everyone knows. I go back into the car and take what I feel is the longest journey back to Nash's. I open the door to the house. There was a sticky note on the table. Nash had taken Skylynn out to the park. I run upstairs up with the bag and open the box. The small pink test looking back at me. I felt so intimidated. But I needed to know. I took the test and waited and waited. All I needed was to see the one negative blue line. I put the test down and sit and wait. The 15 minutes past and I reach for the test. My hands shake. Two blue lines. Two blue lines. This can't be. I can't be. All that gushy stuff I thought about in the car goes to the back of my head. I don't want to be pregnant. I can't be pregnant. What would my mother say. I start to yell. "THIS ISN'T FAIR." "I NEVER WANTED THIS". I become out of control I start punching the locked door. "IT'S NOT TRUE. IT CAN'T BE TRUE. I WON'T LET BE TRUE." I look back at the floor at the single pregnancy test and begin to slide down the door till I sit. I hold my knees and just begin to cry. What am I going do. I sit and just cry for a while. I finally manage to compose myself and know what I need to do. I can't face him after our last phone call but I know I must at least call him. I call his number and let the ringing fill the silence. 

"Hello, Beth is that you. Finally come to apologise?"

"Aaron, I need to tell you about something. Where are you?"

"I'm just in my room, is everything okay."

"Aaron....I'm pregnant."

The line goes silent

"Aaron. Please talk to me."

"Beth is this a joke."

"No Aaron I threw up this morning and I just took the test. It was a clear positive."

"I need to see you."

"Aaron I can't I'm at work."

"I'm coming to see you tonight."

"No, Aaron please don't"

"I'll meet you tonight."

Aaron hangs up the phone. What am I going to do. 

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