Fearless part 2

Chapter 5

Brittney's POV

Not seeing Jc has been hard, but having to push him away has been even harder. About a month ago during one of my calls with my parents I caved. They knew early on that something was wrong with me because I "didn't sound like my happy self." Eventually after being asked over and over again about what I was keeping from them I gave in and told them. They were furious of course, any parent would be, but they love me and they knew how hard this was on me. They showed me so much love even though they weren't near me. They sent flowers, cards, and called all the time. It was sweet and it was really comforting to know that my parents would always be here for me.

They did however do one thing that has caused me so much pain that life has almost been unlivable They forbid me from seeing Jc. They had me download and app that could track where I was and they were constantly on watch to make sure I was no where near the household of Jc Caylen. They even check my monthly phone bill to make sure that I haven't been texting or calling him.

I was devastated when they told me they wanted me to have nothing to do with him. He's not only the love of my life but he's also my best friend. He has always been there for me and to suddenly just cut him out of my life completely has been unbearable. The worst part was that I couldn't even explain to him why I was keeping my distance. Mom and dad even made it a point to tell Jenn and Andrea that they weren't to talk to Jc about me at all. Although they both promised, I know Jenn has been giving Jc daily updates on how I am doing, but even those are brief and distant.

My night terrors were horrible in the beginning, practically and everyday occurrence. But as time has gone by, they've lessened and I only get them a couple times a week now and when I do Jenn or Andrea will come and lay with me until I fall back asleep. But, because Jc and I have been apart for so long, my panic attacks have returned. They seemed to have just disappeared after I met him. Whenever I started to have one all he needed to do was wrap his arms around me and hold me close and I felt calm again. He made me feel safe. He made me feel like I had nothing to worry about, like nothing in this world could hurt me as long as he was by my side. But, since we haven't seen each other, they've returned and in full force. I made Jenn promise not to tell Jc. Even though I know he worries about me, I don't want to give him more to worry about.

"He's really angry," Jenn said after hanging up the phone with Jc.

"I would be too." I admit. Not seeing or speaking to someone you love in over a month without any explanation... hell, anyone would be angry.

"What are you going to do?" Andrea asked from the kitchen.

Jenn and I were sitting on the couch in the living room.

"I don't know, but I need to figure something out. I feel like I'm on house arrest." I laughed and so did the girls.

"You honestly are. Let me go get some hand cuffs and we can lock you to the table leg!" Andrea joked.

"Ew no! I won't let you put any of your nasty hand cuffs on Brittney. God only knows where those have been." Jenn said and we both burst out in laughter.

"HEY!" Andrea said.

"Calm down we're just teasin'." I said and waved her over. "Come here. Let's watch a movie!"

Andrea ran over and plopped down in the middle between Jenn and I.

"What do you wanna watch?" Jenn asked looking through Netflix.

"Oh I know I know! Safe Haven." Andrea suggested.

"YESSSSSSSSSSSSS!" We all sang.

Jenn started the movie and we all snuggled together under some blankets and watched the movie.