Chloe's POV
It's already past 9 at currently pabalik na kami sa bahay ni Reign. After nung lunch namin, tinapos ko pa ang pago-groceries. Di ko kasi natapos dahil nung sinupresa kuno ako ni Chanyeol ay hinila na niya ako sa restaurant na kinainan namin kanina.
/beep. Beep. Beep./
I looked out the car window only hearing loud noises caused by busy civils who likes to be home by now. And I'm also that civil who wishes to be home too. But sadly this traffic is lowkey not giving it to me.
"Hayst."
I let out a deep sigh and slouch even lower into my seat. This suck.
"That was one heavy sigh. What's wrong?"
I looked at him and he was looking at me. The car is still not moving. And the noise I was hearing before disappeared and it was replaced by birds chirping...
O.A na!
Yeah, guess you're right.
"Nothing.....I just want to go home.... now."
Umiwas na ako ng tingin sa kaniya at tinuon ang pansin sa mga sasakyan. I had enough today and I need to rest. I want to shut this eyes close and wake up in the morning feeling nothing.
"You seem unhappy seeing me, Chloe. I'm sorry that I didn'--"
"It's not about that Chanyeol."
My voice raised a bit and I know I'm slowly getting pissed. At alam ko rin na nararamdaman na niya iyon. Mabuti nga't ang pagkakainis ko nararamdaman niya. Pero ang buwiset na pagtingin ko! Nagiging bato siya. How far can this cruelty get?
Tsaka, ano bang napasok sa utak nito na ang pagsurpresa niya sa akin kanina ay yun ang ikinagagalit ko?
"Then what?"
He said at nagsimula nang umabanti sa oras na umusod na ang traffic. His voice was full of curiosity and was pissed.
But his question hit me.
What was I mad at him in the first place? Why am I avoiding him? Why can't I find in my system the happiness I'm feeling everytime he'll have a visit here? Why am I being like this? Have I had enough of this love thing? Am i getting tired? Getting tired of waiting and assuming that he'll, one day, know my feelings? At isang araw, ay masusuklian din niya yun?
Pero, siguro nga, napapagod na ako kakahintay sa panahon na iyon. Maybe it's time to find or maybe just focus on my life for now on. No more Chanyeol. No more falling. I already fallin' deep for him. But never once have I felt he catched me.
Di ko pinansin ang tanong niya at tinuon ang tingin sa labas ng kotse. The city was pleasant. The sky is filled with beautiful stars. Naalala ko tuloy nung high school pa kami ni Chanyeol. We would always meet every night just to appreciate the stars. Sabay-sabay kaming naghahanap ng mga constolation. He would often find one, while I got a hard time finding it. That was good times.
"I'm not used, Chloe."
Tinignan ko siya nang magsalita siya at ihinto ang sasakyan sa harap ng bahay nina Reign. Finally. Pero bago pa man ako makalabas ng sasakyan ay mabilisan niya itong ini-lock.
"What now Chanyeol?" I said annoyed. Di ko naman intensyon na magalit sa kaniya. But, I just can't handle it. "You being cold." He reached for my hand and squezzed it tightly. "Please tell me what's wrong."
Dinala niya ang kamay ko papalit sa kaniya. May halong lungkot ang boses niya.
Di na ako nagabalang kunin ang kamay ko. Pagod na ako. Gusto ko nang mag-pahinga. I'm drained mentally and physically.
"Chanyeol, I'm tired. I. Want. To. Rest. So please... open the damn door."
