I'm the Alphas girl.

Jealously

This chapter goes out to @anikez.

It's all my fault. I let my wolf take over. Why can't I just control my wolf? Now Alex's hates me I had beaten all the other wolves and it was all because I got jealous and was afraid Alex's would leave me for that wolf. These were the thoughts going through my head while I was unconscious.

I woke up in a dimly lit room I turned my head to the side and saw Alex's he was on his knees. I looked closer and my heart felt like it shattered to pieces. Alex's was crying and the wolf girl I attacked before was hugging him. The wolf girl looked up at me in hatred "your finally awake." She spat at me. I looked at Alex's then her "where am I?" I asked trying not to let my voice crack. Alex glared at me "where are you? really that's the first thing your worried about not the fact that you scared me to death and that I'm crying no all you care about is your self you such a selfish b**ch!" He screeched. I looked up at him with nothing in my heart or soul "your right I am selfish ok. now where am I and when can I go home?" I asked emotionless. Alex grabbed me by the shoulders "you think I'm going to take you back to the pack house after what you did. Ha that's funny your not going home until you tell me what the hell you were thinking when you attacked the pack and me?" Alex asked his grip on me tightening. I felt nothing but pain I shoved him off of me "Stop it! I didn't mean to hurt the others my wolf took over and I couldn't control my anger and I took it out on them and I'm sorry I feel awful for hurting them. Ok I'm sorry!" I sobbed out. Alex pulled me close to him and hugged me tightly. I looked up at him and shoved him away from me "But I'm not sorry for attacking you and that stupid wolf girl." I said getting out of the bed I was in. Alex grabbed me by the wrist and turned me towards him "what do you mean you not sorry for attacking me and her?" he asked angrily. I looked at him and looked to the ground "Alex she was all over you and you didn't care you just let her be. I got mad because I got jealous it's your fault I lost control you know I've been hurt but yet you don't care. You just don't care!" I cried out sinking to the floor. When I wasn't crying any more I stood up and walked towards the door "maybe I should have just been a rogue or just died with the rest of my pack." I said as I opened the door. I was about to walk out of the room when I was yanked back and slammed to the wall I looked up and saw Alex in front of me "I know you have been hurt and I don't want to hurt you. I just didn't know you would get jealous I'm always like that with girls. I'm sorry I didn't mean for you to get like that. I'm happy your not a rogue and that your here right now. I love you." Alex said before he kissed me passionately. I kissed him back happily we pulled apart for air " Alex what am I supposed to do to make it up to the pack?" I asked quietly. I glared at Alex as he started laughing "well you will have to go shopping with the girls because you messed up their clothes and the guys want to learn some of your moves so the next time they fight with you they'll win." Alex said with a smile. I turned my head to the side in confusion "they aren't mad at me?" I asked "nope they all blamed April for your little wolf attack. They said she probably did something to make you mad." Alex said playing with a strand of my hair. I grabbed the collar of his shirt and pulled him into a kiss "I love you and your pack." I said in between kisses. He pulled away smiling "come on let's go home." he said with a sheepish smile. I giggled at his cuteness and fallowed him out of the room to his car. The car ride was fun we sang to really corny songs the whole ride home. I never asked were the stupid wolf girl went and I don't really care she could have fallen in to a ditch for all I care. When we got back to the pack house everyone hugged me and asked me if I was ok then about shopping and about fighting. When I was finally in mine and Alex's room I fell on the bed and starred at the ceiling " why are you starring at the ceiling?" Alex asked as he laid next to me. I turned to him and kissed him sweetly. I love it when we kissed every time we kissed he would take my breath away of course I will never tell him but I think he already knows.

That night me and Alex's fell a sleep holding each other close and telling one another I love you. I know life won't be easy but with Alex by my side life doesn't need to be easy it can get as hard as it wants Alex will be by side to help me. I love my new pack and my sweet mate Alex's.