Helpless

Memories

Lilly's POV:

I woke up in a hospital bed with all these horrible memories of my father racing around in my head. I try to stand up but I feel like I am going to faint. I sit on the edge of the bed trying to block out all of the memories but it is not working. I see my father saying things to me and hitting me. "YOU STUPID LITTLE BI*CH!" he says "WHAT IS THIS VULGAR CRAP?!! " "GO KILL YOURSELF!! IT WOULD BE BETTER FOR EVERYONE!!!" "NO ONE LOVES YOU!! " YOU STUPID... SELFISH... UGLY... FAT... WORTHLESS...SL*TTY... BI*CH... HELPLESS...WH*RE... H*E... UNGRATEFUL... BRATTY... PATHETIC... IGNORANT... REPULSIVE... DISGUSTING... PIG... MONSTER... FLIGHT RISK... LITTLE SH*T!!!!!!!!" Every horrible word, every slap, every punch, every awful thing that he has ever done to me come racing back into my head. It keeps replaying over and over in my mind... "I CAN'T TAKE IT ANY MORE!!" I scream at the top of my lungs as I collapse to my knees on the cold hard hospital floor. I stay there curled up in a ball on the ground crying for an hour before I composed myself again. I laid down on the weird smelling hospital bed once more after that episode of mental insanity. "I can't help but wonder what I did to deserve this. I have been treated like sh*t almost my entire life and for what? Just because my mother died trying to protect me? HOW IS THAT MY FAULT?!?! I DIDN'T FORCE HER TO!! I WAS ONLY A LITTLE GIRL GOING ON A SHOPPING TRIP WITH MY MOM!!! I DIDN'T EVEN UNDERSTAND WHAT WAS HAPPENING!!! AND NOW I AM SCREAMING LIKE A CRAZY PERSON AND YOU CAN'T EVEN HEAR ME!!!!!!" I screamed at the top of my lungs. "On the contrary Disgusting Sl*t. I can hear you perfectly fine." I hear a voice say. I look around and out of the corner of my eye I see a shadow creep across the wall. "He can't save you, you know." He says. "Who are you?! " I say to him. "I think you already know who I am." My father says as he steps out into the light. "Oh, and I enjoyed your little breakdown there." he says to me as a smirk becomes apparent on his face. As he takes a step forward to get closer to me I stumbled backwards and fear that he might do something to hurt me. "What's the matter ska*k? You scared that I'm going to hurt you? Don't worry about that I have other plans for you..." He comes closer to me and I back up until I hit the wall. He takes out a syringe filled with some sort of liquid and jams it into the nape of my neck. I start to feel woozy and my vision becomes very blurry. "WHAT DID YOU DO TO ME?!?!! " I scream at him. At this point I am struggling to maintain my consciousness. "Oh you know... I only erased your memory of the past month. No biggie." The next thing I know the world suddenly becomes black. I wake up in a hospital bed confused as to what happened and why I am here. This random guy runs into my room screaming my name and hugs me. "Ummmmm... Who are you? " I ask him and he just stares at me in disbelief.