I see Alyssa and she waves to get my attention and Angelo's.
Me: This is my best friend, Alyssa.
I say as we walk towards her.
Alyssa: Hey cutie, you should date my best friend. She's single, a bit boring but you can fix that. She's not a virgin and she's right I hear, but not like in a whore type kinda- never mind.
Me: Yea could ya Shut the fuck up.
Alyssa: Don't get yo ass beat.
Me: By Who?
Alyssa: You must have grown some larger balls being near this new boy.
Me: I didn't grow shit, I just have been hiding my big ass balls and dick.
I said that loud enough for the boy behind me to hear.
Turns out that boy is Joji.
Joji: I didn't know you had a dick.
Me: Don't talk to me please.
I turned back around to Angelo and laid my head on his shoulder.
~
A month later
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Alyssa has been in Maryland for the last past month and I miss her. Me and Joji don't speak anymore, we stop speaking after I told him not to a month ago. Me and Angelo are together but I hate him.
Me: I'm gonna go to m-
Angelo: If you go you better come back. I'm tired of you leaving and disrespecting our relationship. I love your stupid ass.
Me: Fuck you.
Angelo: I will beat your ass, don't you ever talk to me like that again.
Turns out Angelo wasn't the guy I thought. His life is fucked up. His father rape his mother and that's how he came about so now his mother hates him and they get into physical altercations. That fucked him up, it seems like he must hate girls he's attracted to or girls that remind him of his mom. I remember I hugged him when he cried because his mom kicked him out and he needed up smacking me because I said "maybe you should spend some time away from his
Mother." Ever since then he's been dark, and not so much abusive but he has hit me before multiple times, but I'm to scared to leave him.
I tried.
•Flashback•
Me: I think we should bre-
Angelo: You are not leaving me. I fell in love with you bitch! You're just like my mom, a whore.
He smacked me.
Angelo: Go back to the Dream who sucked my dick.
Me: Fuck You.
Angelo: I will fucking kill you.
Me: You wouldn't dare.
~
A year later.
I'm a Sophomore now and I'm pregnant, with Angelos baby.
Alyssa killed herself in Maryland because her father raped her when she was little and he killed her mother while she was in Maryland.
I have no one.
Angelo has been way more abusive.
I have to wear make up now.
I never Where make up but now I have to because he can't go to jail, not with this baby.
I would abort but I'm not that evil, Angelo wants me to.
I told him "I would kill this baby. The only way this baby is dying is if I die too."
He then smacked me and locked me in a bathroom. He makes me cut myself, and if I don't he'll beat me. Sometimes not with his hands. He would take a hanger or belt, he once beat me with a pan. His mother died and I'm the only one who knows, his family is gone and it's been that way since so I'm the only one who's here. He only has his friends and they don't give a fuck about them.
Right now, I just wanna die. I went from slightly depressed in life to extremely depressed.
I've thought of killing myself before but now I can't because I have a child.
Also if your wondering where my parents are, well I don't really have them. They dropped me off here in New York and never came back. I don't know where they are. The last thing they told me was "Have a nice life."
I didn't think that meant they were leaving me forever.
