Joji drives me to his place to pick his things up and he comes and we head off to my place.
Joji: Where do I sleep?
Me: Either on the floor, on a blow up mattress, or the couch.
Joji: Blow up mattress.
Me: Why?
Joji: Cause I wanna be near you, and I don't wanna sleep on the floor so, I'll just sleep on the mattress beside you.
Me: Whatever.
...
I get out the shower. I stick my head out the bathroom door.
Me: Imma need ya to leave my room, so I can put on lotion, pajamas and shit.
Joji: Okay.
As soon as he closes the door, I drop my towel.
He came back in.
Joji: I forgot my pho- Oh my gosh, the bruises.
Me: Leave!
Joji: Okay, Okay.
I looked in the mirror and saw all the bruises, and it made me cry.
I went to the bathroom and found some pills and swallowed at least 8...
Joji: It took her awhile, then I heard something big or heavy drop.
I go in the room and see foam coming out her mouth and a pill bottle and a bunch of blood. I instantly call the hospital.
...
I'm here sitting in the lobby of the hospital waiting...
She's alive...
But the baby isn't...
The doctor said the pills effected the baby first, that's why I saw blood.
But her body just rests there in the hospital bed.
I just stare at her, she's beautiful and an amazing person and she doesn't deserve this or anything that has happened to her.
Of course I caused this. If only I loved her in that way at that time, she wouldn't be here.
