Love is a Lie//BTSXReader

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this has literally turned into a non-stop dialog Jesus can my writing get even worse imma cri

"Who do you want to sit with?" Yoongi asked, getting into the airplane.

"Maybe she should sit with Jungkookie and I" Taehyung said, wanting someone to distract Jungkook so Taehyung could be left alone with his troubled thoughts.

"Yeah" Jungkook flashed his bunny teeth, seeming happy.

"I'm fine with whatever as long as I'm close to the window because this plane is making me extremely claustrophobic" I said although I was really glad that I sat next to them because they would quickly fall asleep and I wouldn't embarrass myself by talking as much as I would.

"Oh, I really wanted to sit next to the window, could you sit in between Jungkook and I?" Tae asked and how could I say 'no' to that beautiful face?

"Hyung, if she wants to sit next to the window then let her" Jungkook defended my seat. And while I was thankful, I didn't want them to fight over a seat.

"It's fine, don't worry about it" I smiled at him.

"Okay, but tell me if you feel uneasy, I'll be right there" he smiled back, grabbing my hand. He intertwined our fingers and lightly squeezed my hand to reassure me that everything will be alright.

"Oh, you don't have to do that. It's a long flight and you have a lot of things to do, you should rest"

"I've slept in the hotel, I'm fine, don't worry about it"
In the corner of my eye I saw Taehyung glaring at me as he slightly scoffed at the fluffy interaction. Are they all in relationships? Can't I just take one? Please?

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The plane was, thankfully, half empty before we took off. The guys talked about a lot of things with me or about me and I felt really connected with them. Or I felt amazing because I was in the center of attention, whatever.

Suddenly, I felt the plane, which was still on the ground, shake and the engine of it roar. I quickly grabbed the seat, practically clawing into it and started praying like I was doing the exorcist. Tae and Kookie had worried expressions on their faces when they saw me, while the rest of the guys were making a Bangtan Bomb.

Jungkook grabbed my hand, intertwining our fingers again, I hadn't noticed when he let go, squeezing it softly.

"It's fine. You're fine. We're fine. Everything is fine. It's not a very long flight and we can do or play whatever you want to do or play" Taehyung smiled with his famous boxy, heart-shaped smile.

"What do you usually do when you're nervous or scared?" Jungkook asked. I felt embarrassed to tell them the truth - I only felt good when I listened to them singing. There wasn't anything better than their sweet voices gracing my ears with their presence.

"Huh?" Tae asked once again, snapping me out of my train of thought.

"I-I usually listen to music"

"We could sing!" Jungkook said turning towards the rest of the guys who nodded in sync.

"It's fine, rest, I'll be fine, just like you said", but after I said that we started taking off and flying into the air while salty tears escaped my eyes from fear.

"No, no, no, it's fine" Jungkook said wiping the tears with his other hand, "Amugeotdo saenggakhaji ma
neon amu maldo kkeonaejido ma
geunyang naege useojwo"

The rest of the guys joined in, even the rap line, as we all laughed but Namjoon, who was singing his little heart out. Their voices helped me calm a bit as Taehyung's and Jungkook's warm embraces kept me save and sound.

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Everybody was fast asleep while I was still up, looking at them dearly, tucking Taehyung in with a blanket he brought. The pillow he brought was between his arms whilw his head was resting on the window of the plane. He was glowing, his expression peaceful. The sun rays hugged his face, casting shadows, while his chest, covered by the blanket, slowly raised up and then down, his bangs resting on the sides of his gorgeous face.

I felt shuffling on the other side of me. It was Jungkook who struggled to get into the right position to sleep, which was odd, because I knew how much he loved to sleep and how easy it was for him to close his eyes and enter dream world. When I turned around to face him, his eyes were open and tired.

"Why are you still awake?" he asked me softly, stretching out.

"I don't want to sleep" I answered, "do you want a blanket?"

"I'm good, I don't think I'll sleep either. I'm not that tired" he said and straightened up in his seat.

"Are you sure? You seem tired"

"Yeah, I'm fine. I haven't had the chance of getting to know you, you know, just you and me, so this could be the right time" he smiled, getting closer to my ear so we wouldn't wake up Tae.

"What do you want to know?"

"Everything. But first lets start with something deep" I nodded, "have you ever felt like you're in a bad mental place and you want to get out of it, but can't?"

His words scared me. First of all because they were too familiar, but secondly because he probably asked ms that because he felt that way. I loved him more than anything and him suffering made me suffer as well. So, without actually asking him what's wrong, I tried helping him out.

"I have. Everybody has at some point, but we all realize that there is so much more in life that we could do and accomplish, so we just throw those awful feelings away and focus on better things. Even though it's hard, we still need to push through those bad times and stay positive as much as we can"

"What about if we think low of ourselves because the media has thought us that there is no perfection and that everyone has flaws?" he said it effortlessly.

"Jungkook, it's true that everyone has flaws, but if we were all perfect wouldn't that be boring? We would all have clear skin and amazing personalities. Imagine having to win a girl to a guy. That would be impossible if other guys had the same traits as you"

"Yeah" he stared at nothing in particular, "you're really mature for your age, you know that?" he smiled at me.

"We been knew" I whipped my hair cockily and quietly laughed.

"And, don't worry, I just wanted to hear your opinion. That's all. I'm truly good" and that made me feel relaxed.

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HAPPY NEW YEAR hope yall had a gr8 evening and errthin wishing u the best of luck and happiness it this 2018, hope you'll meet BTS one day, but the makeup artist job WILL BE MINE ONE WAY OR ANOTHER

and yeah yo bitch neva drinking again lol that shit's scary