Love is a Lie//BTSXReader

cuarenta y dos

The guys were so tired after the show that we didn't say a thing to each other. Jungkook smiled cutely before saying "Tomorrow, please", sounding breathless, while Jin almost fell forward so Yoongi and Namjoon carried him to the car. Jimin and Hoseok were a bit better than them as they exchanged a few words with me, mostly about them being tired, but they were all still exhausted. It was strange to me because they would usually be very happy and energized after the show, but I realized that this was probably because they'd been dancing and singing their hearts out every night for the past couple of months so the tiredness must'd gotten to them.

Birth giver: Don't forget to do your homework!!

Shit. I completely forgot about the entire school thing. I'd been so busy with the guys and their shows that I'd completely forgotten about Chemistry or Math. I didn't even remember where I put my books, let alone what I was supposed to study. Since I wasn't so tired I could study when we come back, so that was my plan. Hopefully, I thought, I won't wake up Tae.

"Please tell me that that isn't your fake friend texting you" Jimin said as Yoongi placed his head on Jimin's shoulder, looking at me sleepily.

"It's not" I chuckled, "It's my mom telling me that I have to study the worst subjects in the world: Math and Chem" I rolled my eyes, looking down at my phone again.

"Oh, come on, they're not that bad" he chuckled.

"Well I don't know them, so..."

"I could help you" he offered.

"No, you need to rest and I need to do this tonight. I haven't studied since I accepted to go with you guys. My mom made me promise that I'll study if she lets me go with you guys. I can't break that promise"

"I'm not tired, I promise. I know you need help so I want to help you" he smiled sweetly, "it's the least I can do. Without you I wouldn't have Suga half asleep on my shoulder right now"

"Guys" Hoseok broke our smiles to grab our attention, "I have to tell you something". Everybody except Yoongi and Jimin were asleep, but Hoseok decided to tell them what happened the night I saw him in the bathroom. As only Yoongi and Jimin could hear him, they were the only ones whose smiles were exchanged by deep frowns towards the end of his short story. When he told them about how long he'd been battling with those thoughts, Jimin's eyes started watering, tears streaming down his face as Yoongi kept a straight face, probably wanting to be some sort of support for his lover. Hoseok started crying as well, not being able to contain his emotions. I wanted to hug him tightly and not let go until he let it all out, but I knew that that would wake up the other guys as Jungkook's head was resting on top of my shoulder, Taehyung's head was on his shoulder. As the story continued Jimin and Hoseok sobbed while Yoongi tried calming both of them down. To me, everything was a blur. I couldn't hear a word that they were saying, only hearing loud thuds of my heartbeat, feeling like my heart was about to break seeing them so sad. Hoseok tried smiling through the pain when he finished the story, as I read his lips that mouthed: "I was stupid", Jimin punching his shoulder lightly, his hand going over Yoongi, and soon all three of them gathered in a group hug. All I could do was smile at the sight, although I was still shaken up by the entire situation, wondering when would they tell the rest of the guys.

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We woke up the rest of the guys when we got to out hotel, all of them groaning in annoyance, as we placed them in their rooms. When I left Jungkook in his and Hoseok's room, I helped him undress and dress into his sleepwear. As he was half asleep, Hoseok spoke in a whisper.

"It's really beautiful how much you care for him" he stared at me as I was tucking Jungkook into the bed covers.

"...And is it beautiful how much he cares for both people at the same time making my care for him worthless?" I said bitterly.

"Stop it. Being a nice person isn't for nothing" he smiled slightly.

"Sometimes I feel like it is. People can do whatever they want to do with you and you just stand there and watch them destroy you" I moved Jungkook's bangs from his eyes, looking at his perfect skin.

"Do you really feel like we do that to you?" Hoseok asked seriously.

"No. I'm not that nice. But actual nice people get pushed around more than us mortals" I laughed, but behind that smile there was no humor.

"Well they don't get pushed around by other nice people, do they?" he sat on the bed next to me, careful not to sit on Jungkook's leg.

"Yeah, but there aren't that many nice people" I stared at him, wondering where was this conversation going.

"Which traits make someone a 'nice person'?" he asked, cocking his head to the side as if he was following everything that I said.

"Kindness, care for other people, lovable personality" I simply answered as he nodded.

"That's you" he booped my nose, "You're the nicest person I've ever met. I promise" he smiled.

"Stop" I chuckled as he inched closer to me.

"Believe it or not, he loves you. He loves Taehyung as well, but he still loves you. You need to give him some time to process his feelings" he put his hand on my shoulder to comfort me.

"It's getting late, you should head to sleep, little one" he smiled, causing me to melt.

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I closed the door as slow as possible, trying not to make any noise as Jimin entered the room Taehyung and I were sharing, Taehyung already silently snoring in his sleep. Jimin destroyed my silent plan, though, as he started giggling when he saw Taehyung sleeping in a position that looked extremely uncomfortable. He lay on his hip, his arms were stretched out on my side of the bed as one of his legs was near his chest, the other dangling off the bed.

"Does he always sleep like this?" I chuckled quietly as well, whispering.

"Depends on if he's really tired" Jimin chuckled again.

I brought a chair for Jimin to sit on as I sat on mine, opening up my laptop for school, immediately searching for all the homework I had missed while I was touring with the boys. When I looked through the files, I stopped at the new file that seemed unopened. Knowing that it wasn't my homework, I still opened it anyway because of my curiosity, hoping that it wasn't anyone's nude or something worse. Jimin followed the mouse with his eyes, sitting on his legs on the chair, patiently waiting for me to see what's inside. Hesitantly, I clicked on the file. Gasping, on the picture which was in that file was Tana kissing Jake while in the down left corner of the image, there was a signature - Siena. Without freaking out too much, I quickly closed the picture.

"Are you okay?" Jimin asked, worriedly.

"I will be as soon as we finish this" I mumbled, hoping that I sounded more confident in real life than I sounded to myself, as I entered the Chemistry homework.

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this will probably be the last chapter in a while bc my mom is taking away my phone on Monday AGAIN FFS