Radio Love

I'm Sorry

Tyler

Yesterday was Brianna's Brianna and death day, weird how that's the same day. I was hurting badly yesterday, I couldn't deal with it or so I thought. I think if it wasn't for Lizard being there for me, I would probably be in a jail cell right now.

I drove her home earlier today and told her I would see her later at the radio station, I headed over to the gym and started to punch the punching bag harder than before and my knuckles were bleeding but I didn't care. 

Someone came over to me and put their hand on my shoulder and I looked over and it was Ashley, the girl I slept with once and she thought we were more than just a one night stand.

"Honey, stop punching, your going to break your knuckles." She said and grabbed my hand and I pulled my hand away.

"First of all don't call me honey and Ashley I told you before that I don't like you like that." I said and walked away and took a shower, got dressed and drove over to K 104.

When I walked in the radio station, I saw Lizard talking to one of the office ladies so I walked over and like the stud that I am, I intervening in their conversation.

"Hello ladies" I winked at Lizard and sat down on the chair.

The lady she was talking to gave me a dirty look and walked away.

"Hello Ty, how was your day?" Lizard asked looking at me like I just killed her dreams.

"Pretty good, you?" I remembered that Lizzy doesn't like me going to the gym so I hid my hand so she didn't see the bandages and blood on them.

She noticed that I hid my hands and she said, "It was good, now why are you hiding your hands?" She folded her arms over her chest and waited for me to speak.

"Their cold." I went to get up and walk away but she grabbed my arm, spun me around and yanked my hand out of my pocket and if looks can kill, I would be dead.

"TYLER STONE, WHAT DID I SAY ABOUT THIS?" She yelled and everyone turned around to look at us, so I pulled her outside with me. 

"Lizzy, you don't understand this," I waved my hands in the air, "helps me relieve stress when I had a hard day or helps me forget about my crappy life and all the people that have left me and gave up on me." I said heatedly.

"You could get hurt doing this or somehow break something, or something I don't know, you told me you stopped, how could you lie to me?" 

Was she really pulling the guilt card? 

"Listen I stopped, but when you left, I was hurt and then Brianna's birthday was right around the corner, so no you don't get to pull the guilt card. Where were you when I was in jail? Or when I had a panic attack when my parents told me that? Or when when my heart got broke, oh wait that was you who broke it!" I stormed off not waiting for a reply. I could hear her sobbing but I was too pissed to care. 

On my drive home, I felt like a total dickhead. If I didn't lose her before, I just lost her. 

"Goddammit!" I yelled and slammed my hands on the steering wheel. I wasn't paying attention to the road and rammed right in a tree. The last thought in my mind before I passed out was,

I'm sorry Lizard.

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I woke up in what looked like a hospital room, I went to sit up but I fell back down because it felt like I got hit in the head with a car. I groaned in pain and I heard someone move in the room.

"Jesus, you asshole you scared me." I turned and saw Lizzy with bloodshot eyes and tears still coming down her face. She then slapped me in the arm and I winced, ouch!

"Omg i'm sorry." She said and pulled her hand away.

"Hey, it's okay. I should be the one who says i'm sorry."  I said.

"I didn't mean to hurt you with those words, I was just sad and I have all this pain and hurt built up, I'm sorry Lizard can you ever forgive and if your willing to still be my best friend?" I asked and a tear slid down my face.

"Oh gosh, Ty, it would take more than the truth to get rid of me, what you said was true and i'm sorry that I wasn't there for you. I'm sorry, I really am. I'm a horrible best friend." She said and she started to cry again. 

"I will apologize for this for the rest of my life, I promise." I said and she sobbed even harder.

"Come here, Lizzy." I said and pulled her on the bed and she rested her head on my chest and I wrapped my arms around her. That's how we stayed the rest of the day.