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Taeil // I Still Need U

He left a note.

A fucking note!

He was supposed to be here for our anniversary, he said he made plans, reservations, he promised!

Why would he lie?!

He broke up with me!

I can't fucking believe this! I should have known all along that Jeon Jungkook was still too young at heart to handle someone as melancholic as myself. He deserves someone of youth, and they act it at least in the end, unlike I. All I do is sit around all day and watch TV and play with my phone 24/7, Jungkooks always at the gym, or on a run, at dance practice, he's always active and out, meanwhile, I'm his complete opposite. I don't know how- we even became we.

I thought of the only person who made me happy.

Taeil.

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Taeil's P.O.V.

As I contently chewed on some gum and watching some BigBang MV's on the TV aND talking to Taeyong+ the guys in a GC, an eruption of sounds came from the other side of my aparment door. Choking on my gum nearly, my eyes widened when I heard a female voice. Cries, familiar ones too; they were just too damn familiar to forget.

I went to the door, opening it slowly, and a sobbing Y/N was revealed. Her face was slightly red on her cheeks and forehead, and both of her eyes we're completely drench in an unbeknownst sadness.

"Y-".

"I just-I thought I had some self respect for myself for once, but I guess that's destroyed now too", she held up a nicely written note

"Oh my god.." I scoffed, "He fucking signed a heart. That childish prick" I insulted indirectly as I hugged the poor girl who stood before me bawling her eyes out.

I rubbed her back and kissed her forehead repetitively, and waddling with her in my arms into my apartment, she coughed into my chest, clenching my jacket for support so that her weak knees didn't falter right under her body. Picking her up gently, she whimpered sadly, and I went silent.

This guy really hurt her badly.

"Do you wanna take a walk and talk about it?" I asked lightly in suggestion, and she only nodded through sniffles and using her adorable sweater paws to wipe her pained eyes.

I offered my hand and she gasped.

"Y-y..you'll l-let me hold y-y...your hand..?" she stuttered on nearly every word and each pretaining syllable(s).

I laughed only enough, taking her fingers in mine on my own and kissing her knuckles, "You always said it gave you butterflies" I locked eyes, "Does it still have the same butterfly affect?".

She looked at me so intently and focussed-like, even my eyes felt pierced. I felt myself burning. I wish I could just kiss her right there. I want my lips to own hers, I want to own her everything, I want her so damn bad. But I hadn't think of myself, for she was shattered for god knows how long. I must keep my own composure; for her sake. For the love of my life.

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On the walk, my hands never left hers, I wish they'd never part. "The way her warm hands meet my cold ones.. it almost makes a perfect balance for me. It assures me that every thing that is feeling like it's only half of what it thinks that it should be does in fact possess another 50%. It's lost piece. Everyone has that feeling, and everyone has their own other half, and Y/N.. you have always and will always be mine.

No matter what.

You've always had my heart in your hands, and you don't even realize it. I sometimes wish I could read minds, especially yours. Your good ones, your angry ones, your dirty ones, your sad ones, even the ones where your really not happy with me. Heh..I uh-I'd love to see each and every thing you think of because I wish I could help it. Improving your happiness, simmer your anger, pleasure your dirtiest desires, make your smile when your saddest, and apologize a million times when your mad at wittle old Taeil-ah..I love you so much. But I'm afraid I can never tell you that. Damn, I'd be probably not even noticing if it slipped one day, I'm too ignorant for someone as intelligent and well minded as you. Definitely not visually compatible, I'm far from perfect for my facial features, but you girl..your absolutely gorgeous, the fine printed definition. I remember that day I got real beat up because someone accused you of sleeping with Jungkook and me at the same time. You, Y/N. L/N. Two timing? You'd never, your the most kind loyal and amazing girl I'd ever meet, you'd never hurt anything larger than a basic bitch's brain. Or a fruit fly to provide a synonym. I kinda wish you we're two timing even though that's terribly evil and selfishly wrong of me to think, but I wish you left him for me. O didn't eant him to make the move to leave you because I knew if he did it migjt ruin my chances. Not because it wwouldn't be good to date one of my mutual friends, but because you may not be recovering from him or get over him anytime soon, if ever. *sigh* good times. But I think the best memorable encounter I've ever had with my dear Y/N was when you had no place to stay and you stayed over at my home back when I still lived with my parents. you were so nervous and scared they we're gonna kick you out if they found a girl in my bedroom, let alone my bed itself. But in that bed, I had the nerve..I wish I still possessed such nerve, because that was the night I kissed the love of my life. Surprisingly, (note // this happened before y/n even met jk btw just to clarify that she was in fact, not two timing Taeil and Jungkook) for someone who I didn't expect to have responded so quickly. It lasted for a really really really long time too.. We didn't say anything to each other about it immediately after it happened, and I should've.. and I'm so sorry..

Ahh..all te things I wish I could say to you Y/N".

Suddenly, sobbing began again, as she had stoped crying immesnely before.

"Wowowowow Y/N, Y/N, Y/N, what's wrong what happened?" I cupped her face, but she was smiling. She wasn't crying of sadness????

She scoffed happily and unexpectedly smashed her lips to mine. With wide eyes, I allowed my lips to have permission on returning the gesture. I sucked gently on her bottom lip, as she did with my top. I let my teeth nip a little into the kiss and as she opened her mouth to gasp, I slid my tongue between her lips warily. My grasp naturally by now had made their way down her body. One hand resting in her pocket and on her waist, I used my thumb to wrap around her belt loop. I pulled her even more forward and closer to me until our chests met, touching gently against one another. Finding that we we're both at a loss for words and completely out of breath, we slowly and gradually allowed our lips to seperate.

I clicked my tongue, "What was that for..?" I question softly, nervous of a "I don't know" or "I'm sorry, I shouldn't have done that" response.

"You really don't know.." she paused, "Everything you think you say inside your head just to yourself sometimes doesn't always stay in your head".

"So your saying that.."

"Yep" she laughed.

"I went to all that trouble ketting my words slip accidentally, just please love meeee~" I begged childishly and she giggled.

"I love you Moon Taeil" she admitted.

I held my hand over my heart dramatically, pretending to fall backwards in shock.

"GasP?! Can you repeat that for me a little louder hun" I teased.

Slapping my chest, she bit her lip trying not to laugh as I brought her into a hug.

"And all that stuff you said?"

"Hm?"

"My tears will no longer be sad because of your words Taeil".

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