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All My Heart // Haechan

Your P.O.V:

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"Y/N, I'm sorry, but I can't do this anymore" Donghyuck said blandly as if it was easy.

"Can't do what? The arguing? The constant yelling? Then stop getting so upset and jealo-" he cut me off and pressed me against the wall, his hand on my throat.

My breathing pace was immediately altered, and his strength was impossible to remove.

"D-Donghy-" I could barely say a syllable.

Once he realized I was actually almost out of breath, his eyes widened and filled with tears before quickly releasing his grip. He fell to the ground on his knees, bawling his eyes out. I coughed roughly, gasping for air as I caressed my throat lightly. Donghyuck just continued to cry and sob on the floor.

"WHAT'S WRONG WITH ME Y/N?!" his voice echoed through our apartment complex.

"Baby, nothing is wrong with y-" I tried to calm him down, beside the fact that he just tried to choke me.

"Yes, there is! WHY did I do that, I'm so stupid, I'm going crazy, I-I-" he interrupted, stuttering massively.

"Baby. You aren't stupid and you definitely aren't crazy. You just don't know how to control your emotions. Let me help you-" I went to hug him but he inched away from my touch, terrified.

"No, don't touch me, I'll only hurt you, I don't wanna hurt you.." he kept crying hard, but I ignored his demand to stay away.

I threw my arms around him tightly and pet his hair while kissing his forehead constantly. His tears fell onto my grey longsleeve nearly every two seconds, leaving the fabric slightly desnse in tiny specks.

"I'm so sorry" he just kept repeating apologies over and over again.

"It's okay, baby, it's okay, you can't control yourself, it isnt your fault".

He popped his head up and looked at me with puppy dog eyes, begging for forgiveness. He scanned my face thoroughly before pressing his lips against mine gently, moving in sync slowly. He bit my lip so softly, it almost felt like it was an accident. He was trying to be as cautious as possible after what happened, and I knew he was sincere about it. I let him in and very slowly, he allowed his hands to roam behind my waist and rub my back. I felt his tongue barely brush over my bottom lip when the door was being knocked on. We jumped away from each other in horror, and he got up to open the door.

"Foods here.." he said quietly.

"Y-you ordered takeout...?" I asked nervously.

He blushed and nodded slightly. I forced a small smile, recieving one back from Donghyuck as well.

"I love you" he finally stated confidentially, followed with a sigh.

"Do you?"

He grabbed my hands, staring into my eyes deeply.

"With all my heart" he pecked my lips and paid for dinner, which we ate quickly like animals. Once we finished eating dinner, he offered the idea of watching a movie. We decided on watching Stranger Things since we've rewatched all our DVDs at least five times each, making us both grow bored of it after a while.

He pressed play and patted the couch seat next to him, motioning me to sit beside him. I plopped down and accidentally fell on top of him slightly.

"...sorry" I aplogized and attmepted to scoot over, but he held my waist against his.

"Stay like this, it's not as cold this way" he said, pressing his lips to my nose quickly.

"O-okay" I agreed and he reached for the fleece blanket hanging over the side of the couch, throwing it over our cold bodies.

We watched the show and about three episodes in, I realized that I was the only one actually knowing what was happening on the TV.

"Yah!!! Donghyuck? Are you even paying attention?" I asked irritated.

"Yes. To your beautiful face" he complemented.

I blushed madly and hid my face in his chest, grabbing ahold of his shirt slightly for more coverage. I saw his adorable smirk shoot my way, making my embarrassment grow even more.

"Don't hide, like I said, your beautiful" he said once again, lifting my face up by my chin with two fingers. I looked at him, still red faced and he giggled quietly to himself.

"So cute".

He kissed my nose and abruptly pulled my torso upward, bringing me closer to him. I was now basically straddling his waist and hovering my face inches from his.

"I'm really sorry about earlier. I think love is starting to drive me crazy" he whispered, laughing together almost silently after.

"But I wouldn't have it any other way. I love you so much, Y/N. I hope you know that, regardless of my actions and words".

"I love you too" I replied.

He immediately smiled.

"Sometimes I feel like I'm not good enough for you, or you deserve better.. I'm suprised you've been able to tolerate and stay with me as long as you have.. I just-"

I cut him off by brushing my lips over his barely before completely connectiing our lips. He seemed a little taken back with the fact that I made the first move, considering he usually does. None the less, he seems to enjoy it and when I tried to pull away, he seemed disappointed, so I let ot last for a little longer. When he let me break the kiss, he was an astonished, blushing mess.

"Don't you ever say that you aren't good enough. I love you no matter what. Pain is beauty, and what we have is damn beautiful. And so are you. Inside and out, we're gonna have bumps in the road, but we can't get through it alone" I grabbed his hand and held it to my chest.

"I'm knee-deep in love with you for a reason, and I'm here to stay".

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WOW THIS WAS KINDA ANGSTY MY FRIENDS. I feel like it was kinda short for some reason, but regardless of that, I really enjoyed writing this. I think Yuta or Renjun will be next ^-^ Love you guys ♥♥♥

P.S. if you are just reading this chapter and are new to my book, obviously feek free to check out my other chapters, AND my traiker for an upcoming book the chapter before this one! Will hopefully be rleased within this week :)