killing him - panwink,jinhwi

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Jihoon abhors that he always feels safe around Guanlin.

He loathes that he still thinks that their height gap was cute.

He hates Guanlin and the things he do that confuses him,

But most of all, he hates his self for feeling this way.

“Jihoon-hyung.” Guanlin spoke and Jihoon felt his throat went dry when his heart skipped a beat when Guanlin called his name. It was the same. It was still like before.

“y-yes?” fucking hell. Jihoon cursed when he stuttered.

“you w-wanna go to the mall? I-its okay I-if you dont-”

“let's go then.” Jihoon wanted to slit his throat when those words suddenly escaped his mouth.

“R-really?!” Jihoon saw how Guanlin's eyes lit up in happiness. Jihoon felt something warm.

“yeah. Lets go before I change my mind.” Jihoon tried to sound cold, he really did but those words came out like he said them in a joking voice.

“yes! Hyung, you're the best! I love you!” Jihoon didn't replied after that, afraid that a four word reply that Guanlin missed hearing would escape his mouth.