My brother's girl

My feelings

Benin city, Edo state,
Nigeria.
June 12,2018.
        As I looked down at the vegetables I chopped, I heard two sounds disturbing my head, making me unable to think straight but nothing could distract me from her. She was nailing the cotton in the wall after saying "this house needs redesigning".She bought new cottons and nailed them,she is a designer and she is really good with her drawings,I tell her to not do design alone but also art work,draw steel life drawings,paint,she would go far if she did that but her heart and mind is in cloths,designing cloths for a really huge company, yeah I can't believe it, she is working in a company, as an employee when her father has his own architecture company,now I understand when people say girls are complicated.
        She kept on hitting the nail with a hammer as I kept on chopping the vegetables,then the stool in which she climbed was unbalance and as it shakes I ran towards her as she fell I caught her then fell, then I rolled over and she had her back on the ground while I was on top of her,in that moment I saw the way her eyes sparkle and I was lost in it and I could feel that she was lost in mine as well just then the cotton fell on my back because as the stool fell and as I grabbed her the weight of the stool rested on the cotton bottom and since it wasn't properly nailed, it fell,and as I thought if it was a curse or things just didn't want to go my way for that perfect moment to be ruined by the cotton but little did I know that it's wasn't ruined because as the cotton fell on me she started to laugh and I joined, then I got up.
"I think that's enough nailing for today", I said.
" you are right I would continue tomorrow ",she said smiling.
" you never give up do you?",I asked surprised.
Just then my brother came in.
"What's going on here?", my brother asked seeing how the whole place looked.
" your fiancée is redecorating the place ",I said.
" really ",
" yes honey and I fell but Huemwenmwen caught me before I got to the floor",
"Yes my love there is no one I can trust with you except for my younger brother",
     Do not judge me before you hear me out,I have every thing going well in my life,my business has increased over the years,I am not lacking anything but yet I still feel like there is something missing, I still feel as if there is a hole inside my heart, I can't bear to see them together, I suffer every time I see them together but what can I say, the love I have is an impossible love and yes I am in love with my brother's girl.
     But she isn't really his girl huh listen, my name is Osahuemwenmwen which means God loves me but people call me Huemwenmwen which means loves me. I am in the family of five,three children and a mother and a father.
My brother's name is Osahon-Ehunmwunmwen which means God has answered my prayers but we call him Osahon for short which means God hears and my sister the youngest is called Oghogho which means happiness, we are the Osagie family,we are one of the richest family in Edo state, or should I say we were,since our family company went bankrupt our family has gone down the ladder that's why my parents planned to make sure my elder brother marries a daughter from one of the richest family who is their friend by the way, and they do not know that we are broke,that we are only using them. My brother and Osaro didn't meet until our parents had a family dinner with her parents in other to bring them together, it was planned by both my parents and her parents. My brother is the type to want to please my mum so he went along and as time passed he started having feelings for her but no one knew that I didn't need to wait for time to pass,from the first day I met her I fell for her and I know she did too but what can I say she is like my brother wanting to be the perfect daughter to her father and making sure to not disobey him. It's clear that they are engaged, it's clear that they would be married in 6months time but it's also clear that they do not love each other, they like each other but they do not love each other,she isn't really his girl and before I forget Osaro means God is alive.
      Later that day we went to a film house at ugbowo but not to watch film but eat and drink.
"I can't believe you don't have a girl friend up till now,Huemwenmwen",my brother said as he drop the beer on the table.
" yes he is right you are not getting any younger ",
" it is not as easy as it's seems",
"What's hard there,common... if some one else told me that I would have believed but it's you, you got so many girls running over you",
" you can just do 'bo ben ta'(it is an African way of selecting in a state of confusion, it's like casting lot but it's not)on them and pick the one it falls on",Osaro said jokily and we all laughed.
I wanted that moment to never end,to always see her laughing so happily, to see the way her face glow as she laughs.
      It's really not as easy as they think,yes it's true that so many girls run after me but none of them has my heart with them,I am not in love with any of them,why is it always like this, I can have any girl in the world but my heart only calls out for the one who I can't have, the only girl I can't have is the one I yearn for. There was a time I sum up the courage to go to my mum and told her to use me instead, let me get married to her,our family will still be rich that way but she shun me saying "how can we take our first son to that family, then say no we don't want her to marry him anymore, let her marry my second son,how outrageous",from that day I kept my feelings inside knowing it would never be,our love would never be.