Before The Show (Boyxboy)

6- Bird Set Free

Trent's POV

It's been a month since everything happened. Gwen stood me up and she's no where to be found, Duncan confessed some weird feelings for me and Leshawna and I have not spoken. We've been on our winter break so I have chosen to sequester myself into my room. I've written songs and played my guitar. When I play my music, I get lost and forget about all my worries. But this time there just seems to be so much happening. I retrieved Gwen's book from the trash a few days after I threw it away, but I still have yet to open it. What to do, what to do?

I check my phone and it reads 7:36 p.m. I look out my window and sigh. At least the night is beautiful. It reminds me of Gwen, dark and mysterious. But with the right amount of light, it's beautiful and fun. You know what, I'm going to open that book! I need to stop this sulking, it's been a full month.

I head over to my closet and grab the book from the shelf that's in there. I take the book with me and plop myself down onto my bed. I cross my legs and inhale deeply. I wonder what secrets are found in here, what if it's secrets from the FBI, or butterflies, what if it's empty. What if I'm overreacting over nothing. I guess there's only one way to find out.

I open the book and the first page is blank. I sigh in relief and rub my eyes. Wow, it's blank. I really did overreact. I grab the book and flip the pages quickly and realize that I am wrong. There's a lot on this book. I close the book and then reopen the book to the second page and find a drawing of myself shirtless. I blush because she gave me abs that I do not have. I flip to the next few pages and they're all drawings of me, sitting down, eating, looking away and they're all amazing. I skip half way through and there's writing.

"I can't believe it. I'm going to go out with Trent on this date. My dad almost caught us. Imagine how bad that would be if he were to see us. I mean it wouldn't be the first time he's seen me with a guy in a certain position. I mean just last week I had-"

Wait, wait, wait. She was with someone the week before? This can't be true. She told me she was taking care of her little brother. She must have had the guy over during the time. Or she was lying to me. I can't believe this. I feel my hands shaking and a pain in my chest envelops my body. I can't be mad at her right? We weren't together, but what the fuck. We were getting there. Who was she with?!

"I had Jeremy in my room and we were getting along real well. But being with him is not the same as being with Trent. This date will help solidify this."

I know who Jeremy is. He's friends with Gwen and Duncan and their group. He is tall, black hair that comes down above his brown eyes. His brown skin gleams in the sunlight, even better than mine but like Duncan, his personality isn't one to die for honestly. I did not know that they had history though and she carried it with her while we were talking. I can't handle this and I just feel betrayed by all of this.

I grab the book and throw it across the room. I grab my bed cover and go underneath. I need someone to talk to about this. I just don't know who. Who can I confide in because this is just too much for me to handle. I can't talk to my parents, this is too weird for me to talk to them about. I wish I had siblings or cousins for me to relate to because I don't have these friends I can talk to. I need to change, I need someone. I grab my phone and dial a number.

"Hey, can you meet me at the park?... Yea that one. In 15-20 minutes. Thanks."

~~~~~20 minutes later~~~~~

I'm at the park and it's 9 at night. There are a few people walking around or running, doing some exercises. I'm looking down at my phone and I wait. I feel a cold breeze that sends shivers down my spine and cross my arms. I should have worn a sweater, but I couldn't wait. I had to get here and talk to someone. I look around and I see them coming. Cody is walking towards me in a grey hoodie and blue jeans. His hair is messy and he seems confused for seeing me at the bench. He has a small smile and he seems warm. Must be fucking nice Cody.

"Hey Trent, what's up?" he sits next to me with the same confused face he had when he was approaching me, but he still has his adorable smile. I chuckle awkwardly and rub the back of my neck. I look out into the distant and then look back at him.

"I just need someone to talk to right now. I wonder if that's okay?" Cody blinks a couple of times and shrugs as a smile creeps onto his lips.

"Yea of course Trent, but why me? You have Gwen and Leshawna who you talk to constantly." After he finishes his sentence he sees how my face cringes and gives me an apologetic look. He must be able to read that things aren't going well. "I guess you and Leshawna still haven't spoken since that day in the cafeteria. That was harsh huh?" He laughs awkwardly, but notices my dull stare.

I cough a bit and reply to him. "Look Cody, I just have been through what seems like a lot to me and I just need someone to listen. Gwen has moved aw-"

"Wait Gwen moved? That explains why she hasn't been at school. But why was it so random? How do you know this? Maybe she just went on a trip before we went on our break?" I can tell Cody is shook by my statement, but I just nod my head.

"I went by her house and saw that she was no longer there. Nothing was there. Duncan told me she moved, and now that I'm saying this I don't know why it is he knew that she moved. And before that Gwen and I were supposed to go on a date, which is where you saw me," he mods his head in remembrance and I continue. "And Gwen gave me this little book that confesses some feelings for me, but that she also has done stuff with Jeremy."

Cody nods his head and looks away. "Yea I've heard rumors about Jeremy and Gwen, but heard they stopped during the summer. I did not know they were continuing something within themselves." I look down and sigh.

"Yea and I'm hurt Cody. This is a lot to take in. I don't have anyone to talk to and that sucks. I just wanted someone to talk to and for them to listen to me. I feel like Gwen led me on and that Gwen would eventually leave me if we ever got together. But she's gone now! I don't know what to do and and..." I feel my voice breaking and I feel the tears roll down my face.

Cody scoots over and hugs me and I just cry into his chest. He rubs my back and begins to soothe me. This is what I wanted, I need this and I'm grateful for Cody to just listen to me. In this moment I'm letting everything out. Thank you Cody.

What do y'all think? Please comment opinions on what I should do? What do I need to work on? What about Trent? How do you feel about this? Love y'all!