Trapped (my gender dysphoria)

School

*names will have been changed from my life because my character is based on me but I don't want to include anyone's names without their permission

As soon as I get inside the bell rings so I head to form. After us all sitting down the register is begun and my form tutor calls through the names. About halfway through he calls "Caitlin!?" And through clenched teeth I can only answer with 'yes sir' even though it feels like stabbing a knife through my heart.

Right on que my form buddy and one of two best friends walks in. She says bonjour to the form tutor and sits down next to me. On a bad day like today she makes me smile and it makes me glad that shes in. "Hi Caitlin" she says. I cringe at the name and reply with 'morning sasha'.

Tick tock, the time moves on so slowly. I just want to get to maths, a chance to zone out and do something I enjoy. I don't hate form its just, sometimes I find no purpose and well, I love maths. "RING!!!!!" The bell practically shouts. As we are dismissed from form. Goody.

I sit down, get out my maths book and start crunching numbers and before I know it, I have chemistry. So I go in with my book and copy all that is on the board . . . Blah . . . Blah . . . Blah . . . Break time.

I have no food or money so I head off to find my two best friends, sasha and kalsey. Once found we head off to do laps.

Who would have known that in the space of ten minutes I can be pushed into, kicked, called a faggot and called transsexual. I hate those ignorant bastards but not as much as I hate myself. If I was born in a better body or with a better brain none of this would have happened.

The only thing I do for the rest of the day is fake smile and wait. Wait for the worst lesson of them all. PE. I hate it. And it was coming up fast.

I didn't like this part as much but please tell me what you think and any ideas you have! I love feedback good or bad and am always looking to improve my work