Fate

My normal life...?

I woke up early this morning. Well, honestly I cannot sleep last night. I am scared. Very scared. I cannot believe my heart. The longer he stay here, the longer it cause me problem.

I go to the kitchen to prepare some sandwich. Today is Sunday and we usually spend time at home until afternoon. Caine is too busy at weekday so he usually want to stay at home until lunch.

I am almost done when I feel Caine's hand around my waist. I can feel his chest at my back.

"Hmm James.. "I close my eyes.  Enjoying his presence.  Somehow I feel warm near him.  Since the first time we met.  I was still in my broken heart when I met him.  But I feel something warm in him.  I don't know why. 

" Can we just get married in near time instead of waiting until 2 years?" He whisper in my ears..

I turn my body to face him.  "I never refused that.  I told you so" I giggle

"Let's just do that... "

"Really?  Why?"

He sighed, "Nothing, just.. I want you to be mine.  Just mine. "

"I  always yours, Caine..  What's wrong? Really.. " I touch his hand

"Suddenly I feel just like this."

"Don't worry too much,  Caine... " Yeah,  don't worry too much,  I thought.  Don't worry too much.  Everything will be back to normal.  Nah, nothing happen. It is just someone from the past.

He kiss me in my nose.  "Yes, I will not. It was probably because I left too long last week.  And I have to leave you again next week.  This time for 10 days."

10 days? "Caine..  Can I go with you? 10 days is too long.. "

"I'm sorry,  you can't.  Next week is the most important think to Kinsley when starting his job.  I will need you to help him.  Please."

I nodded. I can't even trust myself.  If only he knew who is James,  will he trust me?  But he probably trust me. He always did.  And this is just a past,  I convinced myself.

"Sandwich looked tasty.  Uhm.. "

I chuckled.  There is sometimes when he act like a kid,  and I guess I am lucky that I am the only one who see this side of him.  "Come on.  Let's enjoy our sandwich"

Well,  this is my normal life.  And I try to believe that it will be like this.  I can imagine seeing Caine with our kids,  playing in the swimming pool.  He should make a good father.  He will.  That makes me smile.  Yes,  everything gonna be alright. It is just 6 month.  Or even faster.  I killed James from my heart for 10 years.  It is no way that the feeling come back in such small time.  And Caine is very nice.  Very much.